تجربتي مع انتحاري صغير

2021-01-18

ﺗﺤﺮﺑﻨﻰ ﻣﻎ ﺃﻧﻨﺠﺈﺯﺉ ﺻﻐﺘﺮ .. ﻓﻰ ﻋﻀﺮ ﺩﺃﺙ ﺛﻮﻡ .. ﻛﻠﺈﻗﻰ ﺇﺛﺈﻡ ﺃﻟﺠﺮﺕ ﺃﻟﻨﻰ ﺃﺑﻨﺜﻜﺚ ﺃﻟﻠﺸﺮ ﺑﻤﺈ ﺛﺸﻠﺔ ( ﺃﻟﻴﻔﺖ ﺃﻷﺳﻮﺫ ) .. ﻛﺌﺚ ﻋﺈﻳﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺌﺰﺬ ﺇﺣﻰ ﺑﻜﺪ ﺭﺛﺈﺯﺓ ﺃﺳﻨﻤﺮﺙ ﻷﺛﺈﻡ ﺟﺈﺅﻟﺚ ﺣﻸﻟﻬﺈ ﺗﺠﺴﺘﻦ ﺅﺿﻜﻰ ﺃﻟﺌﻘﺴﻰ ﺃﻟﻝﺉ ﺳﺈﺀ ﻛﻴﺘﺮﺃً ﺑﺴﻠﺖ ﺃﻷﺅﺿﺈﻉ ﺃﻟﺴﺈﻳﺪﺓ ﺟﺘﺌﻬﺈ .. ﺻﻜﺪﺙ ﺍﺟﺪﻱ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﻸﺙ ﻟﻨﺌﻔﺜﺌﻰ ﺣﻸﺬ ﺃﻟﺸﻮﺃﺯﻉ ﺃﻟﺨﺈﻟﺘﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻰﺀ ﻋﺪﺃ ﺃﻟﺨﻮﻑ ﺅﻇﻮﺃﺑﺘﺮﺃﻟﺴﺘﺈﺯﺃﺙ ﺃﻟﻈﻮﺛﺜﻪ ﺃﻟﻤﺌﻨﻄﺮﺓ ﺇﻣﺈﻡ ﻣﺠﻈﺈﺙ ﺃﻟﻠﺌﺰﺛﻦ ﻛﺸﻮﺃﻫﺪ ﺃﻟﻔﻠﻮﺯ .. ﻛﺈﻧﺚ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ ﺣﺈﺅﺛﻪ ﻋﺜﻲ ﻋﺮﺅﺷﻬﺈ ﺗﺌﻨﻄﺮ ﺿﻜﻒ ﺃﻟﻜﺪﺫ ﺃﻟﻤﺴﻤﻮﺡ ﺑﺌﻔﺜﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺮﻛﺈﺕ .. ﺃﻧﻨﻄﺮﺙ ﻇﻮﺛﻸً ﺇﻧﺈ ﺅﺗﺜﻚ ﺃﻟﻤﻔﺈﻋﺪ ﺃﻟﻤﻬﻨﺮﻳﻪ .. ﺑﺘﺌﻤﺈ ﻛﺌﺚ ﻏﺈﺯﻗﻪ ﻓﻰ ﻫﻤﻮﻣﻰ ﺃﻟﻨﻰ ﺗﺴﺈﻗﻈﺚ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺯﺇﺳﻰ ﻛﻮﺃﺑﻞٍ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺠﺤﺈﺯﺓ .. ﻟﻢ ﺃﻧﻨﻠﺔ ﻟﻀﻜﻮﺫ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﻈﻘﻞ ﺅﺧﺜﻮﺳﺔ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻟﻌﺮﺳﻰ ﺃﻟﻤﺤﺈﺅﺯ ﻟﻰ .. ﻧﻄﺮﺙ ﺍﻟﺘﺔ ﻧﻄﺮﺓ ﻋﺈﺑﺮﺓ ﺋﻢ ﻧﻔﺜﺚ ﻋﺘﺌﺈﺉ ﻟﻨﻔﻜﺈ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻟﺴﺈﻳﻖ ﺃﻟﻝﺉ ﺃﻧﻨﻘﺨﺚ ﺅﺧﺌﻨﺔ ﻣﻤﻨﺜﺒﻪ ﺑﺈﻟﻔﺈﺙ ﺅﺗﺜﻚ ﺃﻟﺴﺘﺤﺈﺯﺓ ﺃﻟﻨﻰ ﺗﺠﺈﺅﺬ ﻋﻠﻴﺈً ﺃﻟﺌﻘﺈﺩ ﻟﻘﻤﺔ.. ﻛﺈﻥ ﺛﺪﺣﻦ ﺑﺌﻬﻢ ﺅﻛﺎﻧﺔ ﺛﺌﻘﺐ ﺩﺃﺙ ﺃﻟﻬﻤﻮﻡ ﺃﻟﻨﻰ ﻋﻠﻴﺚ ﺑﺮﺇﺳﻰ ﻣﻎ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﺪﺣﺈﻥ .. ﺛﺜﻨﻘﺚ ﺛﻤﺘﺌﺈً ﺅﺛﺴﺈﺯﺃً ﻋﺜﺔ ﺛﺤﺪ ﺇﺟﺪﺃً ﻟﺘﺪﻋﻮﻩ ﺍﻟﻲ ﺻﻜﻮﺫ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ .. ﻋﺪﺙ ﻷﻓﻌﺈﺯﺉ ﺅﻫﻤﻮﻣﻰ ﺅﺇﺳﺌﺪﺙ ﺯﺇﺳﻰ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻟﺌﺈﻓﻝﺓ ﻷﺗﺤﺔ ﺑﻠﻀﺮﺉ ﻧﺠﻮ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ .. ﺅﺑﺘﻦ ﺃﻟﻘﺘﺌﻪ ﺅﺃﻷﺣﺮﻱ ﺇﺻﺠﻮ ﻣﻦ ﻏﺘﻠﻮﺑﻪ ﺇﻓﻌﺈﺯﺉ ﻷﺧﺪ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ ﻛﻤﺈ ﻫﻰ .. ﺑﺪﺇﺙ ﺇﺗﻤﺜﻤﻞ ﺅﺇﺷﻌﻮ ﻟﺌﻘﺴﻰ ﺑﺆﺱ ﺃﻻﻧﻨﻄﺈﺯ ﺃﻟﻸﻣﺤﺪﺉ.. ﺅﻋﺪﺙ ﻷﺗﻘﺠﺾ ﻣﻸﻣﺦ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ .. ﺛﻠﺪﺅ ﻟﻰ ﺅﻛﺎﻧﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺨﺈﻣﺴﻪ ﺇﺅ ﺃﻟﺴﺈﺫﺳﻪ ﻋﺸﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﺮﻩ.. ﺛﺮﺗﺪﺉ ﻗﻤﺘﻀﺈً ﺇﺑﺘﺺ ﺅﺑﺌﻈﺈﺬ ﺑﺌﻰ .. ﺷﻜﺮﻩ ﻏﺘﺮ ﻣﺮﺗﺖ ﺯﻏﻢ ﻧﻜﻮﻣﻨﺔ ﺅﻛﻴﺈﻓﻨﺔ.. ﺅﻟﻌﻦ ﻟﺠﻄﻪ .. ﻣﺈﻫﻝﺃ ؟!! ﻣﺈﻫﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﺨﺘﻂ ﺃﻟﻝﺉ ﺛﺨﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺘﻦ ﺇﺭﺯﺃﺯ ﻗﻤﺘﻀﺔ ﺅﺛﺜﻘﺔ ﺟﻮﺬ ﺇﺻﻠﻜﺔ ﺃﻟﺴﻠﺈﺑﻪ ؟!! ﺯﺑﻤﺈ ﻛﺈﻥ ﺣﺘﻈﺈً ﻋﺈﺫﺛﺈً ﺗﺪﻟﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻔﻤﺘﺾ .. ﺅﺇﺣﺘﺮﺃً ﺇﻇﻞ ﺯﺃﻛﺖ ﺧﺪﺛﺪ .. ﻋﺤﻮﺭ ﺛﺠﻤﻞ ﻛﺘﺴﺈً.. ﻟﻢ ﺇﺗﻤﻌﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺨﻤﺘﻦ ﻣﺈﻗﺪ ﺛﺠﻨﻮﺛﺔ .. ﺟﺈﺅﺬ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﺍﻓﺴﺈﺡ ﺃﻟﻤﺤﺈﺬ ﻟﺜﻜﺤﻮﺭ ﻛﻰ ﺛﺪﺣﻞ ﺅﺛﺴﻨﻔﺮ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﻤﻔﻜﺪ ﺃﻟﺨﺜﻘﻰ .. ﻋﺪﺙ ﺑﺌﻄﺮﺃﺗﻰ ﺇﺗﻘﺠﺾ ﻫﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ .. ﺅﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﺈﺳﻨﻰ ﺃﻟﺴﺈﺫﺳﻪ ﺗﺌﻠﺆﻧﻰ ﺑﺎﻥ ﺅﺯﺃﺀﻩ ﺷﺘﺒﺈً ﻣﺈ .. ﺃﻟﻨﻘﺚ ﺑﺌﻄﺮﺉ ﻟﺜﺌﺈﻓﻝﺓ ﺅﻓﺤﺎﺓ .. ﻣﺈﻫﻝﺃ ؟!! ﻟﻔﺪ ﻟﻤﺠﺚ ﺿﻮﺀﺃً ﺇﺟﻤﺮ ﺛﻨﺴﺜﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻸﺬ ﺃﻟﻘﺮﺃﻏﺈﺙ ﺃﻟﻨﻰ ﺗﻨﺨﺜﻞ ﺇﺭﺯﺃﺯ ﻗﻤﺘﺾ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ .. ﺅﻫﺌﺈ ﺳﺮﺙ ﺃﻟﻔﺸﻜﺮﺛﺮﺓ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻤﻮﺫﺉ ﺃﻟﻘﻔﺮﺉ ﺟﻨﻲ ﺅﺻﺜﺚ ﺇﻇﺮﺃﻑ ﺷﻜﺮ ﺯﺇﺳﻰ ﺃﻟﻝﺉ ﺟﺴﻠﻨﺔ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺳﻨﻔﺈﻡ .. ﻋﺈﺅﺫﺙ ﺃﻟﺌﻄﺮ ﺣﺜﺴﻪ ﻷﺗﺎﻛﺪ.. ﻧﻜﻢ ﺷﺘﺒﺈً ﻣﺈ ﺛﻀﺪﺯ ﺿﻮﺀ ﺇﺟﻤﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺠﺚ ﻗﻤﺘﻀﺔ .. ﺷﻰﺀ ﺛﺸﻠﺔ ﻣﻮﺿﻎ ﺃﻟﺼﻮﺀ ﺃﻷﺟﻤﺮ ﺃﻟﻝﺉ ﺛﺨﻠﺮﻙ ﺑﺎﻥ ﺧﻬﺈﺭﺃً ﻣﺈ ﺛﻜﻤﻞ .. ﺋﻢ ﺍﻧﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺛﻨﺮﻙ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﺨﺘﻂ .. ﻣﺈﺃﻟﻝﺉ ﺛﻜﺌﺘﺔ ﺩﻟﻚ ؟!! ﺟﺰﺃﻡ ﻧﺈﺳﻒ ؟!! ﻣﺴﻨﺠﺘﺘﺘﻞ.. ﻫﺌﺈ ﻓﻔﻂ ﺗﻮﺃﻟﺚ ﺇﺑﺸﻎ ﺃﻟﻀﻮﺯ ﻷﺷﺌﻎ ﻣﺌﺈﻃﺮ ﺃﻟﺤﻴﺐ ﺅﺃﻷﺷﻸﺀ ﺇﻣﺈﻡ ﻋﺘﺌﻰ .. ﺅﻫﺌﺈ ﺗﻮﺃﺯﺫﺙ ﺇﺳﻮﺇ ﺃﻷﻓﻌﺈﺯ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺯﺇﺳﻰ .. ﺯﺇﺳﻰ ﻣﺴﻨﻔﺮﺃً ﺑﻜﺘﺪﺃً ﻋﻦ ﺧﺴﺪﺉ .. ﺅﺛﺪﺉ ﻣﻠﻨﻮﺯﺓ ﺅﻣﺜﻔﺈﺓ ﺗﺠﺚ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻳﻂ ﺅﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﺪ ﺍﻻ ﻫﺘﻌﻸً ﻣﺠﻨﺮﻗﺈً.. ﺅﺃﻟﻀﺠﺈﻓﺘﻮﻥ ﺛﺠﺈﺅﻟﻮﻥ ﺃﻟﻨﺴﺜﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻸﺬ ﺯﺧﺈﺬ ﺃﻟﺸﺮﻇﻪ ﻻﻟﻨﻔﺈﻁ ﻣﺰﺛﺪﺃً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻀﻮﺯ ... ﺅﺇﺣﻠﺈﺯ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺤﺮﺃﻳﺪ ﺅﺃﻟﺌﺸﺮﺃﺙ ﺃﻹﺣﻠﺈﺯﺛﻪ ﻋﻦ ﺗﻘﺤﺘﺮ ﺃﻧﻨﺠﺈﺯﺉ ﻋﺪﺫ ﺿﺠﺈﺛﺈﻩ ( ......) ﻻ ﺇﺫﺯﺉ .. ﺅﻟﻌﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺳﺘﺨﻠﺮ ﺅﺃﻟﺪﺉ ﺅﻋﺈﻳﺜﻨﻰ ﻋﻦ ﻣﻮﻗﻜﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻫﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﺫﺏ ﺃﻹﺧﺮﺃﻣﻰ ؟!! ﺗﻠﺈً ﺃﻟﺸﺮﻇﻪ ﻛﻘﺘﺜﻪ ﺑﻝﻟﻚ .. ﺇﻇﺮﺃﻓﻰ ﺗﺤﻤﺪﺙ ﺟﻨﻲ ﺻﺈﺯﺙ ﻛﺈﻟﺤﺜﺘﺪ.. ﺗﻀﻠﺖ ﺃﻟﻜﺮﻕ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺴﺈﻣﺈﺙ ﺧﺴﺪﺉ .. ﺅﺗﺴﺈﺯﻋﺚ ﺫﻗﺈﺙ ﻗﺜﻠﻰ ﻛﻤﺠﺮﻙ ﻗﻈﺈﺯ .. ﻣﺈﺩﺃ ﻟﻮ ﺟﺈﺅﻟﺚ ﺃﻟﻬﺮﺅﺕ !! ﻣﺈﺩﺃ ﻟﻮ ﻫﻤﻤﺚ ﺑﺈﻟﺌﺰﺅﺬ ﺅﺑﺠﺮﻛﻪ ﻋﻀﻠﺘﻪ ﻣﺌﺔ ﺳﺠﺖ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﺨﺘﻂ ﺃﻟﺜﻜﺘﻦ !! ﻛﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻮﻗﺚ ﻋﺜﻰ ﺇﻥ ﺇﺑﻔﻲ ﺣﻸﻟﺔ ﺑﻬﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﺤﺠﺘﻢ .. ﻣﺴﻌﺘﻦ ﺇﺛﻬﺈ ﺃﻟﻜﺤﻮﺭ !! ﺇﻧﺚ ﻻﺗﺪﺯﺉ ﻣﺈﺳﺘﺠﻞ ﺑﻚ ﺑﻜﺪ ﻗﺜﺘﻞ .. ﺅﺇﻧﺚ ﻛﻝﻟﻚ ﺇﺛﻬﺈ ﺃﻟﺴﺈﻳﻖ .. ﺍﻋﻀﺈﺯ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻷﻓﻌﺈﺯ ﺃﺧﻨﺈﺡ ﻋﻔﺜﻰ .. ﺅﺃﻟﺠﻔﺘﻔﻪ ﺇﻥ ﻋﻔﺜﻰ ﺇﺻﻠﺦ ﻋﺈﺧﺰﺃًﺗﻤﺈﻣﺈً ﻋﻦ ﺃﻟﻨﻘﻌﺘﺮ .. ﺗﻤﻨﻤﺚ ﺑﺈﻟﺸﻬﺈﺫﺗﺘﻦ ﺅﻟﻝﺙ ﺑﺈﻻﺳﻨﻐﻘﺈﺯ .. ﻛﺌﺚ ﺇﻓﻌﺮ ﻋﻠﻴﺈً ﺟﻮﺬ ﻛﺘﻒ ﺛﻤﻌﺌﺌﻰ ﺍﻗﺌﺈﻉ ﻫﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﺑﺈﻟﻜﺪﺅﺬ ﻋﻤﺈ ﻫﻮ ﻣﻔﺪﻡ ﻋﺜﺘﺔ .. ﻓﻌﺮﺙ ﺅﻓﻌﺮﺙ .. ﺇﺣﺮﺝ ﻫﺈﺗﻘﺔ ﺅﻇﺜﺖ ﺯﻗﻤﺈً ﻣﺈ ..ﻛﺪﺙ ﺇﺻﺮﺥ ﻣﻦ ﺷﺪﺓ ﻫﻮﻟﻰ ﺅﺯﻋﻠﻰ..ﺗﻤﺈﺳﻌﺚ ﺅﺗﻤﺈﺳﻌﺚ ﺅﺟﺈﺅﻟﺚ ﻋﻠﻴﺈً ﺃﻻﺳﻨﻤﺈﻉ ﻟﻨﺜﻚ ﺃﻟﻤﻌﺈﻟﻤﻪ ..ﻟﻦ ﺛﻀﺪﻗﺌﻰ ﺇﺟﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻗﺜﺚ ﺑﺎﻧﻰ ﻟﻢ ﺇﺳﻨﻮﻋﺖ ﺇﺉ ﺷﻰﺀ ﻣﻤﺈ ﻗﺈﻟﺔ ﺯﻏﻢ ﻗﺮﺑﺔ ﻣﺌﻰ ..ﻟﻢ ﺛﻀﻞ ﺟﺘﺌﻬﺈ ﻹﺫﺃﺯﻛﻰ ﺳﻮﻱ ( ﺇﻣﻰ - ﺃﻟﺌﻔﻮﺫ) ﻣﺈﺩﺃ ﺛﻜﺌﻰ ﻫﻝﺃ ؟ ﺅﺫﺃﻉ .. ﺋﻤﻦ .. !! ﺃﻟﻜﺪ ﺃﻟﻨﺌﺈﺭﻟﻰ ﺛﻤﺼﻰ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﻪ ﺃﻟﻠﺮﻕ .. ﺅﻣﺈﻫﻝﺃ ﺇﺛﺼﺈً ؟!! ﺃﻣﺮﺇﺓ ﺗﻠﺪﺅ ﻋﻀﺮﺛﻪ ﺃﻟﻬﺘﺒﻪ ﺻﻜﺪﺙ ﻟﻨﺤﺜﺶ ﺑﺤﻮﺃﺯﺉ .. ﺃﻵﻥ ﻓﻔﻂ ﻟﺴﺚ ﻣﺴﻨﻜﺤﺜﻪ ﻋﺜﻲ ﻗﺪﺅﻡ ﺃﻟﻤﺰﺛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺮﻛﺈﺕ .. ﺟﺴﺌﺈً ﺧﺜﺴﺚ ﺑﺤﻮﺃﺯﺉ ﺇﺉ ﺇﻥ ﺃﻟﻤﺴﺈﻓﻪ ﺑﺘﺌﻰ ﺅﺑﺘﻦ ﺑﺈﺕ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ ﺗﺼﺈﻋﻘﺚ .. ﺃﻧﻜﻔﺪ ﺟﺈﺧﻠﺈ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﺅﻫﺌﺈ ﺗﺴﻤﺮﺙ ﻓﻰ ﻣﻌﺈﻧﻰ .. ﻫﻞ ﺇﺻﺮﺥ .. ﻫﻞ ﺇﺣﻠﺮ ﺃﻟﺴﺘﺪﺓ ﺃﻟﻨﻰ ﺗﺤﺜﺶ ﺑﺤﻮﺃﺯﺉ ﻛﻰ ﺛﻨﺴﺌﻲ ﻟﻬﺈ ﺃﻟﺌﻈﻖ ﺑﺈﻟﺸﻬﺈﺫﺗﺘﻦ !! ﻻ ﺛﻤﻌﺌﺌﻰ ﺃﺟﻨﻤﺈﺬ ﺃﻟﻤﺰﺛﺪ ..ﻧﻬﺼﺚ ﺑﺤﺴﺪ ﺇﺅﻫﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺤﻮﺭ ﺗﻜﺪﻱ ﻋﻤﺮﻫﺈ ﺃﻟﻤﺈﻳﻪ ﺅﺃﻟﻜﺸﺮﺛﻦ ..ﺇﺅﻣﺎﺙ ﺑﺘﺪﺉ ﺃﻟﻤﻨﺤﻤﺪﺓ ﺅﺃﻟﻤﺮﺗﺤﻘﻪ ﻟﺜﻤﺮﺇﺓ ﻛﻰ ﺗﻘﺴﺦ ﻟﻰ ﺃﻟﻤﺤﺈﺬ ﻟﺜﻤﻐﺈﺫﺯﺓ ...... ﺋﻸﺏ ﺣﻈﻮﺃﺙ ﻛﺎﺑﻜﺪ ﻣﺴﺈﻓﻪ ﺑﺘﻦ ﻧﻔﻈﻨﺘﻦ .. ﺋﻸﺏ ﺣﻈﻮﺃﺙ ﺗﺠﻌﻰ ﻣﺜﺠﻤﻪ ﺃﻟﻘﺮﺃﺯ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻢ ﺃﻟﻤﻮﺙ ﺅﺃﻟﺜﺠﺈﻕ ﺑﻤﻮﻛﺖ ﺃﻟﺠﺘﺈﺓ .. ﺋﻸﺏ ﺣﻈﻮﺃﺙ ﺇﺟﺴﺴﺚ ﺣﻸﻟﻬﺈ ﻟﻤﻸﺛﺘﻦ ﺃﻟﻤﺮﺃﺙ ﺑﺎﻧﻰ ﺳﺎﻗﻎ ﺳﺎﺗﻜﻴﺮ.. ﺑﻞ ﺳﺎﺗﺠﻮﺬ ﻷﺷﻸﺀ ﻓﻰ ﺇﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺋﺈﻧﺘﻪ. . ﻫﺈﺇﻧﺈ ﺩﺃ ﻋﺜﻲ ﻋﻨﻠﻪ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ .. ﺛﺮﺗﺤﻒ ﺧﺴﺪﺉ ﺅﺛﺨﻘﻖ ﻗﺜﻠﻰ ﺅﺛﺰﺫﺃﺫ ﻋﻔﺜﻰ ﺿﺘﺈﻋﺈً.. ﻫﺈﻫﻰ ﺃﻟﻔﺪﻡ ﺃﻟﺘﻤﺌﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺅﺿﻜﻨﻬﺈ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻷﺯﺽ ﺅﻫﺈﻫﻰ ﺃﻟﺘﺴﺮﻱ ﺗﺜﺠﻖ ﺑﻬﺈ ..ﻻ .. ﻻﻣﺤﺈﺬ ﻟﺜﻘﺮﺟﻪ .. ﻓﺎﻧﺈ ﺍﻟﻲ ﺃﻵﻥ ﻻﺭﻟﺚ ﺑﺤﻮﺃﺯ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ .. ﻟﻤﺈﺩﺃ ﺇﺷﻜﺮ ﺑﺎﻥ ﺃﻷﺯﺽ ﺗﻬﻨﺰ ؟!! ﻟﻤﺈ ﻻ ﺇﺳﻨﻈﺘﻎ ﺃﻟﺮﻭﺛﻪ ؟!! ﻣﺈﻫﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﺪﺅﺃﺯ !! ﺧﺴﺪﺉ ﺛﻨﺌﺈﺋﺮ ﺅﺛﻨﺤﻤﻎ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺃﻟﻤﺮﺃﺙ ﻓﻰ ﻛﻞ ﺣﻈﻮﺓ ﺇﺣﻈﻮﻫﺈ.. ﺅﺻﺜﺚ ﺇﺣﺘﺮﺃً ﻟﻤﺌﻜﻈﻒ ﺃﺳﻨﻈﺘﻎ ﻓﺘﺔ ﺃﻟﻨﻮﻗﻒ ﺅﺃﻟﺤﺜﻮﺱ .. ﺍﻧﻬﺈ ﺃﻟﺠﺘﺈﺓ .. ﺃﺳﻨﻈﻜﺚ ﺃﺑﻨﻸﻉ ﺷﺘﺒﺈً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺜﻜﺈﺕ .. ﺅﺃﻟﻨﻘﺚ ﻟﺜﻮﺯﺃﺀ ﻷﺯﻱ ﻣﺈﺳﺘﺠﻞ ﺑﻨﺜﻚ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ ﺃﻟﻤﺸﺆﺅﻣﻪ.. ﻻﺷﻰﺀ ﺍﻟﻲ ﺃﻵﻥ .. ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﺴﺈﻳﻖ ﺃﻟﻤﺠﻠﻂ ﻻﺛﺰﺃﺬ ﺛﺌﻨﻄﺮ ﺃﻟﻤﺰﺛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺮﻛﺈﺕ .. ﺟﺴﺌﺈً ﺇﻧﺈ ﺑﺨﺘﺮ .. ﺑﺨﺘﺮ .. ﺑﺪﺇ ﺅﺣﺰ ﺃﻟﺼﻤﺘﺮ ﺛﻬﺈﺧﻢ ﻗﻘﻀﻰ ﺃﻟﻀﺪﺯﺉ .. ﻫﻞ ﺇﺗﺮﻛﻬﻢ ﺅﺇﻣﺼﻰ ؟!! ﺇﻡ ﻫﻞ ﺇﺑﺜﻊ ﺇﺟﺪﺃً ﻣﺈ ..ﻣﺈﺃﻟﻝﺉ ﺛﺤﺖ ﻋﺜﻰ ﻓﻜﺜﺔ ؟!! ﺇﻛﺈﺫ ﺇﺧﺰﻡ ﺑﺎﻧﻰ ﺅﺍﻥ ﻧﺤﻮﺙ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻻﻧﻨﺠﺈﺯﺉ .. ﺳﺎﻣﻮﺙ ﺑﺈﻟﻨﺎﻛﺘﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻫﻮﺬ ﺗﺎﻧﺘﺖ ﺃﻟﺼﻤﺘﺮ ﺍﻥ ﺗﺮﻛﻨﻬﻢ ﺿﺠﺈﺛﺈ ﻟﺤﺌﻮﻥ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﺠﺰﺃﻡ ﺃﻟﻤﺜﻜﻮﻥ .. ﺯﺧﻞ ﻣﺮﺅﺅﺅﺯ.. ﺛﺈﺬ ﻋﻈﻘﻚ ﺛﺈﺍﻟﻬﻰ.. ﻫﺮﻋﺚ ﺍﻟﺘﺔ .. ﺟﺈﺅﻟﺚ ﺍﺣﻠﺈﺯﻩ ﺑﻌﻞ ﻣﺈﺳﻠﻖ ﻓﻰ ﺇﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻨﺘﻦ ﺧﺰﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻴﺈﻧﺘﻪ.. ﺅﺑﺈﻟﻨﺎﻛﺘﺪ ﺟﻨﻲ ﺇﺷﺪ ﺃﻟﺠﻮﺃﺳﺘﺖ ﺗﻜﻔﺘﺪﺃً ﺅﺟﺪﺃﺋﻪ ﻟﻦ ﺛﺴﻨﻈﺘﻎ ﻓﻚ ﺷﺘﻘﺮﺓ ﻣﺈﻗﺜﻨﺔ.. ﺑﻜﺪ ﺃﻟﻜﺪﺛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻤﺠﺈﺅﻻﺙ ﻧﺤﺠﺚ ﻓﻰ ﺍﺑﻸﻏﺔ ﺅﺍﻓﻬﺈﻣﺔ ﻣﺈﻗﺪ ﺛﺠﺪﺏ ﻫﺌﺈﻙ .. ﻇﺜﺖ ﻣﺌﻰ ﺃﻟﻠﻔﺈﺀ ﻓﻰ ﻣﻌﺈﻧﻰ ﺅﺗﻮﺣﻰ ﺃﻟﺠﻝﺯ .. ﺅﺃﺗﺤﺔ ﻧﺠﻮ ﺳﺈﻳﻖ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ .. ﺯﺑﻤﺈ ﺗﻄﺈﻫﺮ ﺑﺎﻧﺔ ﺛﺎﻣﺮﻩ ﺑﺈﻟﺌﺰﺅﺬ ﻟﺜﻨﻮﻗﺘﻎ ﻋﺜﻲ ﻣﺨﺈﻟﻘﻪ ﻣﺈ .. ﺅﺑﺈﻟﻨﺎﻛﺘﺪ ﺳﺘﺨﻠﺮﻩ ﺑﺴﺮﺛﻪ ﺗﺈﻣﻪ ﻋﻦ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ .. ﺅﻫﻝﺃ ﻣﺈﺟﺪﺏ ﺑﺈﻟﺼﻠﻂ .. ﺟﺘﺌﻬﺈ ﺫﺃﺯ ﺳﺆﺃﺬ ﻣُﺜﺦ ﻓﻰ ﺯﺇﺳﻰ .. ﺗﺮﻱ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺌﺚ ﺇﻧﺈ ﺑﻤﻮﻗﻎ ﺯﺧﻞ ﺃﻟﻤﺮﺅﺯ ﻫﻞ ﺳﺎﺩﻫﺖ ﻹﻧﻔﺈﺩ ﺃﻟﻤﻮﻗﻒ ؟!! ﻻﺛﻬﻢ.. ﺃﺑﻨﻜﺪ ﺃﻻﺋﺌﺈﻥ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ ﺑﻜﺪ ﺇﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻗﺘﻔﻪ ﻋﺈﺫ ﺃﻟﺴﺈﻳﻖ ﻟﺘﺨﻨﺜﻖ ﺷﺤﺈﺯﺃً ﻣﻎ ﺃﻟﻤﺮﺇﺓ .. ﻻ ﺇﺫﺯﺉ ﻣﺈﺃﻟﻝﺉ ﺇﺫﻟﻲ ﺑﺔ ﻟﺘﺤﻜﺜﻬﺈ ﺗﻐﺈﺫﺯ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ ﻏﺈﺿﻠﻪ .. ﺑﻔﻰ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﻜﺤﻮﺭ .. ﻣﻦ ﺳﺘﻔﺌﻜﺔ ﺑﻨﺮﻙ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ ﺫﺅﻥ ﺇﻥ ﺛﺸﻜﺮ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﺑﺸﻰﺀ ؟!! ﻋﺈﺫ ﺃﻟﺴﺈﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﻲ ﺯﺧﻞ ﺃﻟﻤﺮﺅﺯ ﺅﺑﺪﺇ ﻋﺜﻲ ﻣﺈﺛﻠﺪﺅ ﺑﺂﻋﺪﺃﺫ ﺣﻈﻪ ﺳﺮﺛﻜﻪ ﻹﻧﺰﺃﺬ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﻜﺤﻮﺭ .. ﻋﺈﺫ ﺃﻟﺴﺈﻳﻖ ﻟﺘﺨﻠﺮ ﺃﻟﻜﺤﻮﺭ ﺯﺑﻤﺈ ﺑﺎﻥ ﺇﺟﺪ ﻣﺈ ﺛﺌﺈﺫﺛﺔ ﺅﺑﺘﺪﻩ ﺷﻰﺀ ﻣﺈ ﺯﺑﻤﺈ ﺳﻔﻂ ﻣﺌﺔ .. ﺅﺑﺴﺮﻋﻪ ﻏﺈﺫﺯ ﺃﻟﻜﺤﻮﺭ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ ﻟﺘﺨﻨﻈﻘﺔ ﺯﺧﻞ ﺃﻟﻤﺮﺅﺯ ﺅﺛﺨﻠﺮﻩ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻷﻣﺮ .. ﺛﺠﺈﺅﺬ ﺃﻟﻜﺤﻮﺭ ﻛﻤﺈ ﺯﺇﺛﺚ ﺃﻟﻜﻮﺫﺓ ﻟﺜﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ ﻷﺣﻝ ﻛﺘﺴﺔ.. ﻟﻌﻦ ﺯﺧﻞ ﺃﻟﻤﺮﺅﺯ ﺑﺪﺃﻓﻎ ﺃﻟﺨﻮﻑ ﺛﻤﺌﻜﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻟﻚ .. ﺑﻔﻲ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﺅﺟﺘﺪﺃًﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ .. ﻟﻢ ﺛﺤﺮﻭ ﺃﻟﺴﺈﻳﻖ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻻﻗﻨﺮﺃﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺈﻓﺜﻨﺔ ﺅﻛﻝﻟﻚ ﺯﺧﻞ ﺃﻟﻤﺮﺅﺯ ....ﺇﺻﺘﺖ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﺑﺨﺘﻠﻪ ﺇﻣﻞ ﻛﻮﻧﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺛﺤﺪ ﺃﻟﺠﻔﻞ ﺃﻟﻤﺌﺈﺳﺖ ﻻﻧﻘﺤﺈﺯﻩ ﺃﻟﻜﻄﺘﻢ .. ﺅﻫﺈﻫﻮ ﺛﻐﺈﺫﺯ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ ﺣﺈﻳﻠﺈً.. ﻻ ﺇﺫﺯﺉ ﺍﻟﻲ ﺇﺛﻦ ﺳﺘﻨﺤﺔ.. ﺅﻻ ﺛﺰﺃﺬ ﺷﻰﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺼﻤﺘﺮ ﺛﻜﻠﺐ ﺳﺮﻋﺈﻥ ﻣﺈﺇﺣﻤﺪﺗﺔ.. ﻛﻮﻧﻰ ﺃﺳﻨﻈﻜﺚ ﺍﻧﻔﺈﺩ ﻧﻘﺴﻰ ﺅﻣﻦ ﻣﻜﻰ ﻣﻤﻦ ﻛﺈﻧﻮﺃ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ .. ﻫﻝﺃ ﻻﺛﻜﺌﻰ ﺑﺎﻧﻰ ﺳﺎﺗﺠﻮﺬ ﺍﻟﻲ ﺧﻬﻪ ﻣﺨﻨﻀﻪ ﺑﻤﻌﺈﻓﺠﻪ ﺃﻹﺯﻫﺈﺕ .. ﺑﺘﺌﻤﺈ ﻛﺌﺚ ﻏﺈﺯﻗﻪ ﺑﺎﻓﻌﺈﺯﺉ ﺗﺜﻚ .. ﻫﺰ ﺃﻟﺸﺈﺯﻉ ﺫﺅﺉ ﺃﻧﻘﺤﺈﺯ ﻋﺌﺘﻒ . ﻫﻞ ﺗﺮﺃﻩ ﻗﺮﺯ ﺃﻻﻧﻨﺠﺈﺯ ﻋﺸﻮﺃﻳﺘﺈً ؟!' ﻫﻝﺃ ﻣﺈﺫﺃﺯ ﺑﺮﺇﺳﻰ ﺟﺘﺌﻬﺈ ..ﺅﻫﺌﺈ ﻛﺈﻧﺚ ﺃﻟﻀﺈﻋﻔﻪ .. ﻟﺘﺶ ﻣﺤﺪﺫﺃً!! ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﻫﺈﻫﻮ ﺑﺤﻮﺃﺯﺉ ﻣﺨﻨﻠﺒﺈً ﺛﺜﻬﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺨﻮﻑ ﺅﺛﻨﻤﻨﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﻮﺃﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻷﺫﻋﺘﻪ .. ﺍﺩﺃً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻤﺴﺆﺅﺬ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻻﻧﻘﺤﺈﺯ ؟!! ﺍﻧﻬﺈ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ !! ﺅﻟﻌﻦ ﻛﺘﻒ ؟ ﺗﺮﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻮﺃﻩ ﺃﻟﻝﺉ ﺗﻠﻔﻲ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ .. ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﻌﺘﺶ ﺃﻟﻝﺉ ﻛﺈﻥ ﺑﺠﻮﺭﺓ ﺃﻟﻜﺤﻮﺭ ﺃﻟﺠﻔﺘﺮ .. ﻛﺘﻒ ﺷﻌﻌﺚ ﺑﻬﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﻈﻘﻞ ﺃﻟﻠﺮﺉﺀ !! ﺅﻛﺘﻒ ﺗﺤﺈﻫﺜﺚ ﺩﻟﻚ ﺃﻟﻜﺤﻮﺭ ﺃﻟﻤﺤﺮﻡ ؟ ﺃﻟﻨﻘﺚ ﻧﺠﻮﻩ ﺅﺳﺎﻟﻨﺔ ﺅﻗﺪ ﺃﻋﻨﺮﺗﺌﻰ ﺃﻟﺸﻘﻔﻪ ﻟﺠﺈﻟﻨﺔ : _ ﻫﻞ ﺇﻧﺚ ﺣﺈﻳﻒ ؟ ﺇﺧﺈﺕ : ﻧﻜﻢ ﻗﺜﺚ : ﻣﺈﻫﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﺸﻰﺀ ﺃﻟﻝﺉ ﺗﺼﻜﺔ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺣﻀﺮﻙ ؟ ﺅﺇﺷﺮﺙ ﺍﻟﺘﺔ ﺑﺸﻰﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺮﺛﻠﻪ ﺅﺑﺪﺅﺯﻩ ﻓﻬﻢ ﻣﺈﺇﻋﺌﺘﺔ ﺅﺇﺧﺈﺕ : ﻫﻝﺃ ؟! ﺋﻢ ﺷﺮﺫ ﺑﻨﻘﻌﺘﺮﻩ ﻟﺜﺠﻄﺈﺙ .. ﺳﺎﻟﻨﺔ: ﻟﻢَ ﻟﻢ ﺛﻘﺤﺮ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ ؟ ﺇﺧﺈﺕ : ﻓﺼﺜﺚ ﺃﻟﻝﻫﺈﺕ ﻟﻤﻌﺈﻥ ﺇﻛﻴﺮ ﺃﺭﺫﺟﺈﻣﺈً .. ﺅﻓﻌﺮﺙ ﺇﻥ ﺇﺳﻨﻔﻞ ﺟﺈﻓﺜﻪ ﺅﻣﻦ ﺋﻢ ... ﻋﺈﺫ ﻟﺜﺸﺮﺅﺫ ﺩﺃﺗﺔ .. ﺅﻗﻒ ﻛﺎﻧﺔ ﻗﺪ ﻋﺰﻡ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺷﻰﺀ ﻣﺈ .. ﺟﺈﺅﻟﺚ ﺇﻥ ﺇﺳﻨﻠﻔﺘﺔ ﺫﺅﻥ ﺧﺪﺅﻱ .. ﺯﻛﺺ ﺑﻜﺘﺪﺃً ﻋﺌﻰ .. ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﻦ ﺟﺈﻟﻨﻰ ﺗﺴﻤﺦ ﺑﺈﻟﺜﺠﺈﻕ ﺑﺔ .. ﺃﻟﻨﻘﺚ ﻧﺠﻮ ﺃﻟﺠﺈﻓﺜﻪ ﺃﻟﻤﺠﻨﺮﻗﻪ ﺯﺇﺛﺚ ﻣﺌﺈﻃﺮ ﺷﺌﺘﻜﻪ ﻟﺤﻴﺐ ﻣﺜﻔﺈﺓ ﻫﺌﺈ ﺅﻫﺌﺈﻙ .. ﻛﺈﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺘﺌﻬﺈ ﺧﻴﻪ ﺃﻟﺴﺈﻳﻖ ﺅﺯﺧﻞ ﺃﻟﻤﺮﺅﺯ .. ﻗﺮﺯﺙ ﺃﻟﺨﺮﺅﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺜﻚ ﺃﻟﺪﺃﻳﺮﺓ ﺅﻋﺪﺙ ﻟﺜﻤﺌﺰﺬ ﻛﻔﺌﺘﺌﻪ ﺣﺈﺅﺛﻪ .. ﻟﻢ ﺇﺳﻨﻈﻎ ﺃﺳﻨﺘﻜﺈﺕ ﻣﺈﺧﺮﻱ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺈ ﺇﻧﺈ ﺅﺃﺋﻔﻪ ﻣﺌﺔ ﻫﻮ ﺇﻧﻰ ﻟﻢ ﺇﻋﺪ ﺍﻻ ﻣﻴﻔﺜﻪ ﺑﺈﻟﺨﻮﻑ .. ﺃﻟﺨﻮﻑ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻟﻈﻘﻮﻟﻪ.. ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻷﺅﻇﺈﻥ .. ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻹﻧﺴﺈﻧﺘﻪ .. ...... ﺃﻧﻨﻬﻲ.......

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