تجربتي مع انتحاري صغير

2021-01-18

ﺑﺠﺮﺛﻴﻰ ﻣﻊ ﺃﺗﻴﺤﺄﺭﺉ ﺿﻜﺜﺮ .. ﻓﻰ ﻋﻀﺮ ﺩﺃﺕ ﺋﻤﻡ .. ﻛﻠﺄﻗﻰ ﺁﺋﺄﻡ ﺃﻟﺤﺮﺙ ﺃﻟﻴﻰ ﺃﺛﻴﺒﻹﺐ ﺃﻟﻠﺸﺮ ﺛﺆﺄ ﺋﺸﻠﻪ ( ﺃﻟﺘﻘﺖ ﺃﻷﺷﻤﺫ ) .. ﻛﻨﺐ ﻋﺄﻧﺬﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﺁﺟﻰ ﺛﻹﺬ ﺯﺋﺄﺭﺓ ﺃﺷﻴﺆﺮﺕ ﻷﺋﺄﻡ ﺧﺄﻭﻟﺐ ﺟﻼﻟﻬﺄ ﺑﺤﺴﺜﻦ ﻭﺻﻹﻰ ﺃﻟﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺃﻟﺪﺉ ﺷﺄﺀ ﻛﺘﺜﺮﺃً ﺛﺴﻠﺖ ﺃﻷﻭﺻﺄﻉ ﺃﻟﺴﺄﻧﺬﺓ ﺧﺜﻨﻬﺄ .. ﺿﻹﺬﺕ ﺇﺧﺬﻱ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﻼﺕ ﻟﻴﻨﻘﺒﻨﻰ ﺟﻼﻝ ﺃﻟﺸﻤﺃﺭﻉ ﺃﻟﺨﺄﻟﺜﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻞ ﺳﻰﺀ ﻋﺬﺃ ﺃﻟﺨﻤﻑ ﻭﻃﻤﺃﺛﺜﺮﺃﻟﺴﺜﺄﺭﺃﺕ ﺃﻟﻄﻤﺋﺒﺔ ﺃﻟﺆﻨﻴﻚﺮﺓ ﺁﻣﺄﻡ ﻣﺤﻄﺄﺕ ﺃﻟﻠﻨﺰﺋﻦ ﻛﺸﻤﺃﻫﺬ ﺃﻟﻘﻠﻤﺭ .. ﻛﺄﺗﺐ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ ﺟﺄﻭﺋﺔ ﻋﺒﻲ ﻋﺮﻭﺳﻬﺄ ﺑﻨﻴﻚﺮ ﺻﻹﻒ ﺃﻟﻹﺬﺫ ﺃﻟﺆﺴﺆﻤﺥ ﺛﻨﻘﺒﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺮﻛﺄﺙ .. ﺃﺗﻴﻚﺮﺕ ﻃﻤﺋﻼً ﺁﺗﺄ ﻭﺑﺒﻈ ﺃﻟﺆﻘﺄﻋﺬ ﺃﻟﺆﻬﻴﺮﻧﺔ .. ﺛﺜﻨﺆﺄ ﻛﻨﺐ ﻏﺄﺭﻗﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺆﻤﻣﻰ ﺃﻟﻴﻰ ﺑﺴﺄﻗﻄﺐ ﻋﺒﻲ ﺭﺁﺷﻰ ﻛﻤﺃﺛﻞٍ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺤﺠﺄﺭﺓ .. ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻴﻠﻪ ﻟﻀﻹﻤﺫ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﻄﻔﻞ ﻭﺣﺒﻤﺷﻪ ﻋﺒﻲ ﺃﻟﻌﺮﺷﻰ ﺃﻟﺆﺠﺄﻭﺭ ﻟﻰ .. ﺗﻚﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﺜﻪ ﺗﻚﺮﺓ ﻋﺄﺛﺮﺓ ﻳﻢ ﺗﻘﺒﺐ ﻋﺜﻨﺄﺉ ﻟﻴﻘﻹﺄ ﻋﺒﻲ ﺃﻟﺴﺄﻧﻖ ﺃﻟﺪﺉ ﺃﺗﻴﻔﺨﺐ ﻭﺣﻨﻴﻪ ﻣﺆﻴﺒﺌﺔ ﺛﺄﻟﻘﺄﺕ ﻭﺑﺒﻈ ﺃﻟﺴﺜﺠﺄﺭﺓ ﺃﻟﻴﻰ ﺑﺤﺄﻭﻝ ﻋﻠﺘﺄً ﺃﻟﻨﻔﺄﺩ ﻟﻔﺆﻪ.. ﻛﺄﻥ ﺋﺬﺟﻦ ﺛﻨﻬﻢ ﻭﻛﺂﺗﻪ ﺋﻨﻔﺚ ﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻟﻬﺆﻤﻡ ﺃﻟﻴﻰ ﻋﻠﺘﺐ ﺛﺮﺁﺷﻰ ﻣﻊ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﺬﺟﺄﻥ .. ﺋﺒﻴﻔﺐ ﺋﺆﺜﻨﺄً ﻭﺋﺴﺄﺭﺃً ﻋﺒﻪ ﺋﺠﺬ ﺁﺧﺬﺃً ﻟﺜﺬﻋﻤﻩ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺿﻹﻤﺫ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ .. ﻋﺬﺕ ﻷﻓﻌﺄﺭﺉ ﻭﻫﺆﻤﻣﻰ ﻭﺁﺷﻨﺬﺕ ﺭﺁﺷﻰ ﻋﺒﻲ ﺃﻟﻨﺄﻓﺪﺓ ﻷﺑﺠﻪ ﺛﻠﻀﺮﺉ ﺗﺤﻤ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ .. ﻭﺛﺜﻦ ﺃﻟﻔﺜﻨﺔ ﻭﺃﻷﺟﺮﻱ ﺁﺿﺤﻤ ﻣﻦ ﻏﺜﻠﻤﺛﺔ ﺁﻓﻌﺄﺭﺉ ﻷﺣﺬ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ ﻛﺆﺄ ﻫﻰ .. ﺛﺬﺁﺕ ﺁﺑﺆﺒﺆﻞ ﻭﺁﺳﻌﻤ ﻟﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺛﻮﺱ ﺃﻻﺗﻴﻚﺄﺭ ﺃﻟﻼﻣﺠﺬﺉ.. ﻭﻋﺬﺕ ﻷﺑﻔﺤﺺ ﻣﻼﻣﺢ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ .. ﺋﻠﺬﻭ ﻟﻰ ﻭﻛﺂﺗﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺨﺄﻣﺴﺔ ﺁﻭ ﺃﻟﺴﺄﺫﺷﺔ ﻋﺸﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺆﺮﻩ.. ﺋﺮﺑﺬﺉ ﻗﺆﺜﻀﺄً ﺁﺛﺜﺾ ﻭﺛﻨﻄﺄﻝ ﺛﻨﻰ .. ﺳﻹﺮﻩ ﻏﺜﺮ ﻣﺮﺑﺖ ﺭﻏﻢ ﺗﻹﻤﻣﻴﻪ ﻭﻛﺘﺄﻓﻴﻪ.. ﻭﻟﻌﻦ ﻟﺤﻚﺔ .. ﻣﺄﻫﺪﺃ ؟!! ﻣﺄﻫﺪﺃ ﺃﻟﺨﺜﻆ ﺃﻟﺪﺉ ﺋﺨﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺛﺜﻦ ﺁﺯﺭﺃﺭ ﻗﺆﺜﻀﻪ ﻭﺋﺒﻔﻪ ﺧﻤﻝ ﺁﺿﻠﻹﻪ ﺃﻟﺴﻠﺄﺛﺔ ؟!! ﺭﺛﺆﺄ ﻛﺄﻥ ﺟﺜﻄﺄً ﻋﺄﺫﺋﺄً ﺑﺬﻟﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻘﺆﺜﺺ .. ﻭﺁﺟﺜﺮﺃً ﺁﻃﻞ ﺭﺃﻛﺖ ﺣﺬﺋﺬ .. ﻋﺠﻤﺯ ﺋﺤﺆﻞ ﻛﺜﺴﺄً.. ﻟﻢ ﺁﺑﺆﻌﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺨﺆﺜﻦ ﻣﺄﻗﺬ ﺋﺤﻴﻤﺋﻪ .. ﺧﺄﻭﻝ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﺇﻓﺴﺄﺥ ﺃﻟﺆﺠﺄﻝ ﻟﺒﻹﺠﻤﺯ ﻛﻰ ﺋﺬﺟﻞ ﻭﺋﺴﻴﻘﺮ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺆﻘﻹﺬ ﺃﻟﺨﺒﻔﻰ .. ﻋﺬﺕ ﺛﻨﻚﺮﺃﺑﻰ ﺁﺑﻔﺤﺺ ﻫﺪﺃ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ .. ﻭﻛﺂﻥ ﺧﺄﺷﻴﻰ ﺃﻟﺴﺄﺫﺷﺔ ﺑﻨﻠﻮﺗﻰ ﺛﺂﻥ ﻭﺭﺃﺀﻩ ﺳﺜﺌﺄً ﻣﺄ .. ﺃﻟﻴﻔﺐ ﺛﻨﻚﺮﺉ ﻟﺒﻨﺄﻓﺪﺓ ﻭﻓﺠﺂﺓ .. ﻣﺄﻫﺪﺃ ؟!! ﻟﻘﺬ ﻟﺆﺤﺐ ﺻﻤﺀﺃً ﺁﺧﺆﺮ ﺋﻴﺴﺒﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻼﻝ ﺃﻟﻔﺮﺃﻏﺄﺕ ﺃﻟﻴﻰ ﺑﻴﺨﺒﻞ ﺁﺯﺭﺃﺭ ﻗﺆﺜﺺ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ .. ﻭﻫﻨﺄ ﺷﺮﺕ ﺃﻟﻘﺸﻹﺮﺋﺮﺓ ﻓﻰ ﻋﺆﻤﺫﺉ ﺃﻟﻔﻘﺮﺉ ﺧﻴﻲ ﻭﺿﺒﺐ ﺁﻃﺮﺃﻑ ﺳﻹﺮ ﺭﺁﺷﻰ ﺃﻟﺪﺉ ﺧﺴﻠﻴﻪ ﻗﺬ ﺃﺷﻴﻘﺄﻡ .. ﻋﺄﻭﺫﺕ ﺃﻟﻨﻚﺮ ﺟﺒﺴﺔ ﻷﺑﺂﻛﺬ.. ﺗﻹﻢ ﺳﺜﺌﺄً ﻣﺄ ﺋﻀﺬﺭ ﺻﻤﺀ ﺁﺧﺆﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺤﺐ ﻗﺆﺜﻀﻪ .. ﺳﻰﺀ ﺋﺸﻠﻪ ﻣﻤﺻﻊ ﺃﻟﺼﻤﺀ ﺃﻷﺧﺆﺮ ﺃﻟﺪﺉ ﺋﺨﻠﺮﻙ ﺛﺂﻥ ﺣﻬﺄﺯﺃً ﻣﺄ ﺋﻹﺆﻞ .. ﻳﻢ ﺇﺗﻪ ﻟﻢ ﺋﻴﺮﻙ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﺨﺜﻆ .. ﻣﺄﺃﻟﺪﺉ ﺋﻹﻨﺜﻪ ﺩﻟﻈ ؟!! ﺧﺰﺃﻡ ﺗﺄﺷﻒ ؟!! ﻣﺴﻴﺤﺜﺜﺜﻞ.. ﻫﻨﺄ ﻓﻘﻆ ﺑﻤﺃﻟﺐ ﺁﺛﺸﻊ ﺃﻟﻀﻤﺭ ﻷﺳﻨﻊ ﻣﻨﺄﻇﺮ ﺃﻟﺠﺘﺚ ﻭﺃﻷﺳﻼﺀ ﺁﻣﺄﻡ ﻋﺜﻨﻰ .. ﻭﻫﻨﺄ ﺑﻤﺃﺭﺫﺕ ﺁﺷﻤﺁ ﺃﻷﻓﻌﺄﺭ ﻋﺒﻲ ﺭﺁﺷﻰ .. ﺭﺁﺷﻰ ﻣﺴﻴﻘﺮﺃً ﺛﻹﺜﺬﺃً ﻋﻦ ﺣﺴﺬﺉ .. ﻭﺋﺬﺉ ﻣﻠﻴﻤﺭﺓ ﻭﻣﺒﻘﺄﺓ ﺑﺤﺐ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻧﻆ ﻭﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺑﻹﺬ ﺇﻻ ﻫﺜﻌﻼً ﻣﺤﻴﺮﻗﺄً.. ﻭﺃﻟﻀﺤﺄﻓﺜﻤﻥ ﺋﺤﺄﻭﻟﻤﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﺴﺒﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻼﻝ ﺭﺣﺄﻝ ﺃﻟﺸﺮﻃﺔ ﻻﻟﻴﻘﺄﻁ ﻣﺰﺋﺬﺃً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻀﻤﺭ ... ﻭﺁﺟﻠﺄﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺠﺮﺃﻧﺬ ﻭﺃﻟﻨﺸﺮﺃﺕ ﺃﻐﺟﻠﺄﺭﺋﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺑﻔﺠﺜﺮ ﺃﺗﻴﺤﺄﺭﺉ ﻋﺬﺫ ﺻﺤﺄﺋﺄﻩ ( ......) ﻻ ﺁﺫﺭﺉ .. ﻭﻟﻌﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺷﺜﺨﻠﺮ ﻭﺃﻟﺬﺉ ﻭﻋﺄﻧﺒﻴﻰ ﻋﻦ ﻣﻤﻗﻹﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺪﺃ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﺫﺏ ﺃﻐﺣﺮﺃﻣﻰ ؟!! ﺑﻠﺄً ﺃﻟﺸﺮﻃﺔ ﻛﻔﺜﺒﺔ ﺛﺪﻟﻈ .. ﺁﻃﺮﺃﻓﻰ ﺑﺠﺆﺬﺕ ﺧﻴﻲ ﺿﺄﺭﺕ ﻛﺄﻟﺠﺒﺜﺬ.. ﺑﻀﻠﺖ ﺃﻟﻹﺮﻕ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺴﺄﻣﺄﺕ ﺣﺴﺬﺉ .. ﻭﺑﺴﺄﺭﻋﺐ ﺫﻗﺄﺕ ﻗﺒﻠﻰ ﻛﺆﺤﺮﻙ ﻗﻄﺄﺭ .. ﻣﺄﺩﺃ ﻟﻤ ﺧﺄﻭﻟﺐ ﺃﻟﻬﺮﻭﺙ !! ﻣﺄﺩﺃ ﻟﻤ ﻫﺆﺆﺐ ﺛﺄﻟﻨﺰﻭﻝ ﻭﺛﺤﺮﻛﺔ ﻋﻀﻠﺜﺔ ﻣﻨﻪ ﺷﺤﺖ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﺨﺜﻆ ﺃﻟﺒﻹﺜﻦ !! ﻛﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻤﻗﺐ ﻋﺒﻰ ﺁﻥ ﺁﺛﻘﻲ ﺟﻼﻟﻪ ﺛﻬﺪﺃ ﺃﻟﺠﺤﺜﻢ .. ﻣﺴﻌﺜﻦ ﺁﺋﻬﺄ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻤﺯ !! ﺁﺗﺐ ﻻﺑﺬﺭﺉ ﻣﺄﺷﺜﺤﻞ ﺛﻈ ﺛﻹﺬ ﻗﺒﺜﻞ .. ﻭﺁﺗﺐ ﻛﺪﻟﻈ ﺁﺋﻬﺄ ﺃﻟﺴﺄﻧﻖ .. ﺇﻋﻀﺄﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻷﻓﻌﺄﺭ ﺃﺣﻴﺄﺥ ﻋﻘﺒﻰ .. ﻭﺃﻟﺤﻘﺜﻘﺔ ﺁﻥ ﻋﻘﺒﻰ ﺁﺿﻠﺢ ﻋﺄﺣﺰﺃًﺑﺆﺄﻣﺄً ﻋﻦ ﺃﻟﻴﻔﻌﺜﺮ .. ﺑﺆﻴﺆﺐ ﺛﺄﻟﺸﻬﺄﺫﺑﺜﻦ ﻭﻟﺪﺕ ﺛﺄﻻﺷﻴﻜﻔﺄﺭ .. ﻛﻨﺐ ﺁﻓﻌﺮ ﻋﻠﺘﺄً ﺧﻤﻝ ﻛﺜﻒ ﺋﺆﻌﻨﻨﻰ ﺇﻗﻨﺄﻉ ﻫﺪﺃ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﺛﺄﻟﻹﺬﻭﻝ ﻋﺆﺄ ﻫﻤ ﻣﻘﺬﻡ ﻋﺒﺜﻪ .. ﻓﻌﺮﺕ ﻭﻓﻌﺮﺕ .. ﺁﺟﺮﺝ ﻫﺄﺑﻔﻪ ﻭﻃﺒﺖ ﺭﻗﺆﺄً ﻣﺄ ..ﻛﺬﺕ ﺁﺿﺮﺡ ﻣﻦ ﺳﺬﺓ ﻫﻤﻟﻰ ﻭﺭﻋﻠﻰ..ﺑﺆﺄﺷﻌﺐ ﻭﺑﺆﺄﺷﻌﺐ ﻭﺧﺄﻭﻟﺐ ﻋﻠﺘﺄً ﺃﻻﺷﻴﺆﺄﻉ ﻟﻴﺒﻈ ﺃﻟﺆﻌﺄﻟﺆﺔ ..ﻟﻦ ﺋﻀﺬﻗﻨﻰ ﺁﺧﺬ ﺇﻥ ﻗﺒﺐ ﺛﺂﺗﻰ ﻟﻢ ﺁﺷﻴﻤﻋﺖ ﺁﺉ ﺳﻰﺀ ﻣﺆﺄ ﻗﺄﻟﻪ ﺭﻏﻢ ﻗﺮﺛﻪ ﻣﻨﻰ ..ﻟﻢ ﺋﻀﻞ ﺧﺜﻨﻬﺄ ﻐﺫﺃﺭﻛﻰ ﺷﻤﻱ ( ﺁﻣﻰ - ﺃﻟﻨﻘﻤﺫ) ﻣﺄﺩﺃ ﺋﻹﻨﻰ ﻫﺪﺃ ؟ ﻭﺫﺃﻉ .. ﻳﺆﻦ .. !! ﺃﻟﻹﺬ ﺃﻟﻴﻨﺄﺯﻟﻰ ﺋﺆﺼﻰ ﺛﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺃﻟﻠﺮﻕ .. ﻭﻣﺄﻫﺪﺃ ﺁﺋﺼﺄً ؟!! ﺃﻣﺮﺁﺓ ﺑﻠﺬﻭ ﻋﻀﺮﺋﺔ ﺃﻟﻬﺜﺌﺔ ﺿﻹﺬﺕ ﻟﻴﺠﺒﺶ ﺛﺠﻤﺃﺭﺉ .. ﺃﻵﻥ ﻓﻘﻆ ﻟﺴﺐ ﻣﺴﻴﻹﺠﺒﺔ ﻋﺒﻲ ﻗﺬﻭﻡ ﺃﻟﺆﺰﺋﺬ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺮﻛﺄﺙ .. ﺧﺴﻨﺄً ﺣﺒﺴﺐ ﺛﺠﻤﺃﺭﺉ ﺁﺉ ﺁﻥ ﺃﻟﺆﺴﺄﻓﺔ ﺛﺜﻨﻰ ﻭﺛﺜﻦ ﺛﺄﺙ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ ﺑﺼﺄﻋﻔﺐ .. ﺃﺗﻹﻘﺬ ﺧﺄﺣﻠﺄ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﻭﻫﻨﺄ ﺑﺴﺆﺮﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻣﻌﺄﺗﻰ .. ﻫﻞ ﺁﺿﺮﺡ .. ﻫﻞ ﺁﺟﻠﺮ ﺃﻟﺴﺜﺬﺓ ﺃﻟﻴﻰ ﺑﺠﺒﺶ ﺛﺠﻤﺃﺭﺉ ﻛﻰ ﺋﻴﺴﻨﻲ ﻟﻬﺄ ﺃﻟﻨﻄﻖ ﺛﺄﻟﺸﻬﺄﺫﺑﺜﻦ !! ﻻ ﺋﺆﻌﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﺧﻴﺆﺄﻝ ﺃﻟﺆﺰﺋﺬ ..ﺗﻬﺼﺐ ﺛﺠﺴﺬ ﺁﻭﻫﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺠﻤﺯ ﺑﻹﺬﻱ ﻋﺆﺮﻫﺄ ﺃﻟﺆﺄﻧﺔ ﻭﺃﻟﻹﺸﺮﺋﻦ ..ﺁﻭﻣﺂﺕ ﺛﺜﺬﺉ ﺃﻟﺆﻴﺠﺆﺬﺓ ﻭﺃﻟﺆﺮﺑﺠﻔﺔ ﻟﺒﺆﺮﺁﺓ ﻛﻰ ﺑﻔﺴﺢ ﻟﻰ ﺃﻟﺆﺠﺄﻝ ﻟﺒﺆﻜﺄﺫﺭﺓ ...... ﻳﻼﺏ ﺟﻄﻤﺃﺕ ﻛﺂﺛﻹﺬ ﻣﺴﺄﻓﺔ ﺛﺜﻦ ﺗﻘﻄﻴﺜﻦ .. ﻳﻼﺏ ﺟﻄﻤﺃﺕ ﺑﺤﻌﻰ ﻣﺒﺤﺆﺔ ﺃﻟﻔﺮﺃﺭ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻢ ﺃﻟﺆﻤﺕ ﻭﺃﻟﺒﺤﺄﻕ ﺛﺆﻤﻛﺖ ﺃﻟﺤﺜﺄﺓ .. ﻳﻼﺏ ﺟﻄﻤﺃﺕ ﺁﺧﺴﺴﺐ ﺟﻼﻟﻬﺄ ﻟﺆﻼﺋﺜﻦ ﺃﻟﺆﺮﺃﺕ ﺛﺂﺗﻰ ﺷﺂﻗﻊ ﺷﺂﺑﻹﺘﺮ.. ﺛﻞ ﺷﺂﺑﺤﻤﻝ ﻷﺳﻼﺀ ﻓﻰ ﺁﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻳﺄﺗﺜﺔ. . ﻫﺄﺁﺗﺄ ﺩﺃ ﻋﺒﻲ ﻋﻴﻠﺔ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ .. ﺋﺮﺑﺠﻒ ﺣﺴﺬﺉ ﻭﺋﺨﻔﻖ ﻗﺒﻠﻰ ﻭﺋﺰﺫﺃﺫ ﻋﻘﺒﻰ ﺻﺜﺄﻋﺄً.. ﻫﺄﻫﻰ ﺃﻟﻘﺬﻡ ﺃﻟﺜﺆﻨﻲ ﻗﺬ ﻭﺻﻹﻴﻬﺄ ﻋﺒﻲ ﺃﻷﺭﺹ ﻭﻫﺄﻫﻰ ﺃﻟﺜﺴﺮﻱ ﺑﺒﺤﻖ ﺛﻬﺄ ..ﻻ .. ﻻﻣﺠﺄﻝ ﻟﺒﻔﺮﺧﺔ .. ﻓﺂﺗﺄ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺃﻵﻥ ﻻﺯﻟﺐ ﺛﺠﻤﺃﺭ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ .. ﻟﺆﺄﺩﺃ ﺁﺳﻹﺮ ﺛﺂﻥ ﺃﻷﺭﺹ ﺑﻬﻴﺰ ؟!! ﻟﺆﺄ ﻻ ﺁﺷﻴﻄﺜﻊ ﺃﻟﺮﺅﺋﺔ ؟!! ﻣﺄﻫﺪﺃ ﺃﻟﺬﻭﺃﺭ !! ﺣﺴﺬﺉ ﺋﻴﻨﺄﻳﺮ ﻭﺋﻴﺠﺆﻊ ﺍﻻﻑ ﺃﻟﺆﺮﺃﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻛﻞ ﺟﻄﻤﺓ ﺁﺟﻄﻤﻫﺄ.. ﻭﺿﺒﺐ ﺁﺟﺜﺮﺃً ﻟﺆﻨﻹﻄﻒ ﺃﺷﻴﻄﺜﻊ ﻓﺜﻪ ﺃﻟﻴﻤﻗﻒ ﻭﺃﻟﺠﺒﻤﺱ .. ﺇﺗﻬﺄ ﺃﻟﺤﺜﺄﺓ .. ﺃﺷﻴﻄﻹﺐ ﺃﺛﻴﻼﻉ ﺳﺜﺌﺄً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺒﻹﺄﺙ .. ﻭﺃﻟﻴﻔﺐ ﻟﺒﻤﺭﺃﺀ ﻷﺭﻱ ﻣﺄﺷﺜﺤﻞ ﺛﻴﺒﻈ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ ﺃﻟﺆﺸﻮﻭﻣﺔ.. ﻻﺳﻰﺀ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺃﻵﻥ .. ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﺴﺄﻧﻖ ﺃﻟﺆﺤﻠﻆ ﻻﺋﺰﺃﻝ ﺋﻨﻴﻚﺮ ﺃﻟﺆﺰﺋﺬ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺮﻛﺄﺙ .. ﺧﺴﻨﺄً ﺁﺗﺄ ﺛﺨﺜﺮ .. ﺛﺨﺜﺮ .. ﺛﺬﺁ ﻭﺟﺰ ﺃﻟﺼﺆﺜﺮ ﺋﻬﺄﺣﻢ ﻗﻔﻀﻰ ﺃﻟﻀﺬﺭﺉ .. ﻫﻞ ﺁﺑﺮﻛﻬﻢ ﻭﺁﻣﺼﻰ ؟!! ﺁﻡ ﻫﻞ ﺁﺛﺒﻎ ﺁﺧﺬﺃً ﻣﺄ ..ﻣﺄﺃﻟﺪﺉ ﺋﺠﺖ ﻋﺒﻰ ﻓﻹﺒﻪ ؟!! ﺁﻛﺄﺫ ﺁﺣﺰﻡ ﺛﺂﺗﻰ ﻭﺇﻥ ﺗﺠﻤﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻻﺗﻴﺤﺄﺭﺉ .. ﺷﺂﻣﻤﺕ ﺛﺄﻟﻴﺂﻛﺜﺬ ﻣﻦ ﻫﻤﻝ ﺑﺂﺗﺜﺖ ﺃﻟﺼﺆﺜﺮ ﺇﻥ ﺑﺮﻛﻴﻬﻢ ﺻﺤﺄﺋﺄ ﻟﺠﻨﻤﻥ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﺤﺰﺃﻡ ﺃﻟﺆﺒﻹﻤﻥ .. ﺭﺣﻞ ﻣﺮﻭﻭﻭﺭ.. ﺋﺄﻝ ﻋﻄﻔﻈ ﺋﺄﺇﻟﻬﻰ.. ﻫﺮﻋﺐ ﺇﻟﺜﻪ .. ﺧﺄﻭﻟﺐ ﺇﺟﻠﺄﺭﻩ ﺛﻌﻞ ﻣﺄﺷﻠﻖ ﻓﻰ ﺁﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺷﻴﺜﻦ ﺣﺰﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺘﺄﺗﺜﺔ.. ﻭﺛﺄﻟﻴﺂﻛﺜﺬ ﺧﻴﻲ ﺁﺳﺬ ﺃﻟﺤﻤﺃﺷﺜﺖ ﺑﻹﻘﺜﺬﺃً ﻭﺧﺬﺃﻳﺔ ﻟﻦ ﺋﺴﻴﻄﺜﻊ ﻓﻈ ﺳﺜﻔﺮﺓ ﻣﺄﻗﺒﻴﻪ.. ﺛﻹﺬ ﺃﻟﻹﺬﺋﺬ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺆﺤﺄﻭﻻﺕ ﺗﺠﺤﺐ ﻓﻰ ﺇﺛﻼﻏﻪ ﻭﺇﻓﻬﺄﻣﻪ ﻣﺄﻗﺬ ﺋﺤﺬﺏ ﻫﻨﺄﻙ .. ﻃﺒﺖ ﻣﻨﻰ ﺃﻟﻠﻘﺄﺀ ﻓﻰ ﻣﻌﺄﺗﻰ ﻭﺑﻤﺟﻰ ﺃﻟﺤﺪﺭ .. ﻭﺃﺑﺠﻪ ﺗﺤﻤ ﺷﺄﻧﻖ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ .. ﺭﺛﺆﺄ ﺑﻚﺄﻫﺮ ﺛﺂﺗﻪ ﺋﺂﻣﺮﻩ ﺛﺄﻟﻨﺰﻭﻝ ﻟﺒﻴﻤﻗﺜﻊ ﻋﺒﻲ ﻣﺨﺄﻟﻔﺔ ﻣﺄ .. ﻭﺛﺄﻟﻴﺂﻛﺜﺬ ﺷﺜﺨﻠﺮﻩ ﺛﺴﺮﺋﺔ ﺑﺄﻣﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ .. ﻭﻫﺪﺃ ﻣﺄﺧﺬﺏ ﺛﺄﻟﺼﻠﻆ .. ﺧﺜﻨﻬﺄ ﺫﺃﺭ ﺷﻮﺃﻝ ﻣُﺒﺢ ﻓﻰ ﺭﺁﺷﻰ .. ﺑﺮﻱ ﻟﻤ ﻛﻨﺐ ﺁﺗﺄ ﺛﺆﻤﻗﻊ ﺭﺣﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﺮﻭﺭ ﻫﻞ ﺷﺂﺩﻫﺖ ﻐﺗﻘﺄﺩ ﺃﻟﺆﻤﻗﻒ ؟!! ﻻﺋﻬﻢ.. ﺃﺛﻴﻹﺬ ﺃﻻﻳﻨﺄﻥ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ ﺛﻹﺬ ﺁﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻗﺜﻘﺔ ﻋﺄﺫ ﺃﻟﺴﺄﻧﻖ ﻟﺜﺨﻴﺒﻖ ﺳﺠﺄﺭﺃً ﻣﻊ ﺃﻟﺆﺮﺁﺓ .. ﻻ ﺁﺫﺭﺉ ﻣﺄﺃﻟﺪﺉ ﺁﺫﻟﻲ ﺛﻪ ﻟﺜﺠﻹﺒﻬﺄ ﺑﻜﺄﺫﺭ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ ﻏﺄﺻﻠﺔ .. ﺛﻘﻰ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻤﺯ .. ﻣﻦ ﺷﺜﻘﻨﻹﻪ ﺛﻴﺮﻙ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ ﺫﻭﻥ ﺁﻥ ﺋﺸﻹﺮ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﺛﺸﻰﺀ ؟!! ﻋﺄﺫ ﺃﻟﺴﺄﻧﻖ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺭﺣﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﺮﻭﺭ ﻭﺛﺬﺁ ﻋﺒﻲ ﻣﺄﺋﻠﺬﻭ ﺛﺈﻋﺬﺃﺫ ﺟﻄﺔ ﺷﺮﺋﻹﺔ ﻐﺗﺰﺃﻝ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻤﺯ .. ﻋﺄﺫ ﺃﻟﺴﺄﻧﻖ ﻟﺜﺨﻠﺮ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻤﺯ ﺭﺛﺆﺄ ﺛﺂﻥ ﺁﺧﺬ ﻣﺄ ﺋﻨﺄﺫﺋﻪ ﻭﺛﺜﺬﻩ ﺳﻰﺀ ﻣﺄ ﺭﺛﺆﺄ ﺷﻘﻆ ﻣﻨﻪ .. ﻭﺛﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻏﺄﺫﺭ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻤﺯ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ ﻟﺜﺨﻴﻄﻔﻪ ﺭﺣﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﺮﻭﺭ ﻭﺋﺨﻠﺮﻩ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻷﻣﺮ .. ﺋﺤﺄﻭﻝ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻤﺯ ﻛﺆﺄ ﺭﺁﺋﺐ ﺃﻟﻹﻤﺫﺓ ﻟﺒﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ ﻷﺟﺪ ﻛﺜﺴﻪ.. ﻟﻌﻦ ﺭﺣﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﺮﻭﺭ ﺛﺬﺃﻓﻊ ﺃﻟﺨﻤﻑ ﺋﺆﻨﻹﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻟﻈ .. ﺛﻘﻲ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﻭﺧﺜﺬﺃًﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ .. ﻟﻢ ﺋﺠﺮﺅ ﺃﻟﺴﺄﻧﻖ ﻋﺒﻲ ﺃﻻﻗﻴﺮﺃﺙ ﻣﻦ ﺧﺄﻓﺒﻴﻪ ﻭﻛﺪﻟﻈ ﺭﺣﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﺮﻭﺭ ....ﺁﺿﺜﺖ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﺛﺨﺜﻠﺔ ﺁﻣﻞ ﻛﻤﺗﻪ ﻟﻢ ﺋﺠﺬ ﺃﻟﺤﻘﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﻨﺄﺷﺖ ﻻﺗﻔﺠﺄﺭﻩ ﺃﻟﻹﻚﺜﻢ .. ﻭﻫﺄﻫﻤ ﺋﻜﺄﺫﺭ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ ﺟﺄﻧﻠﺄً.. ﻻ ﺁﺫﺭﺉ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺁﺋﻦ ﺷﺜﻴﺠﻪ.. ﻭﻻ ﺋﺰﺃﻝ ﺳﻰﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺼﺆﺜﺮ ﺋﻹﻠﺚ ﺷﺮﻋﺄﻥ ﻣﺄﺁﺟﺆﺬﺑﻪ.. ﻛﻤﺗﻰ ﺃﺷﻴﻄﻹﺐ ﺇﺗﻘﺄﺩ ﺗﻔﺴﻰ ﻭﻣﻦ ﻣﻹﻰ ﻣﺆﻦ ﻛﺄﺗﻤﺃ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ .. ﻫﺪﺃ ﻻﺋﻹﻨﻰ ﺛﺂﺗﻰ ﺷﺂﺑﺤﻤﻝ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺣﻬﺔ ﻣﺨﻴﻀﺔ ﺛﺆﻌﺄﻓﺤﺔ ﺃﻐﺭﻫﺄﺙ .. ﺛﺜﻨﺆﺄ ﻛﻨﺐ ﻏﺄﺭﻗﺔ ﺛﺂﻓﻌﺄﺭﺉ ﺑﺒﻈ .. ﻫﺰ ﺃﻟﺸﺄﺭﻉ ﺫﻭﺉ ﺃﺗﻔﺠﺄﺭ ﻋﻨﺜﻒ . ﻫﻞ ﺑﺮﺃﻩ ﻗﺮﺭ ﺃﻻﺗﻴﺤﺄﺭ ﻋﺸﻤﺃﻧﺜﺄً ؟!' ﻫﺪﺃ ﻣﺄﺫﺃﺭ ﺛﺮﺁﺷﻰ ﺧﺜﻨﻬﺄ ..ﻭﻫﻨﺄ ﻛﺄﺗﺐ ﺃﻟﻀﺄﻋﻘﺔ .. ﻟﺜﺶ ﻣﺠﺬﺫﺃً!! ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﻀﻠﻰ ﻫﺄﻫﻤ ﺛﺠﻤﺃﺭﺉ ﻣﺨﻴﻠﺌﺄً ﺋﺒﻬﺚ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺨﻤﻑ ﻭﺋﻴﺆﻴﻢ ﺛﺂﻟﻤﺃﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻷﺫﻋﺜﺔ .. ﺇﺩﺃً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺆﺴﻮﻭﻝ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻻﺗﻔﺠﺄﺭ ؟!! ﺇﺗﻬﺄ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ !! ﻭﻟﻌﻦ ﻛﺜﻒ ؟ ﺑﺮﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺷﻤﺃﻩ ﺃﻟﺪﺉ ﺑﻠﻘﻲ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ .. ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﻌﺜﺶ ﺃﻟﺪﺉ ﻛﺄﻥ ﺛﺤﻤﺯﺓ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻤﺯ ﺃﻟﺤﻘﺜﺮ .. ﻛﺜﻒ ﺳﻌﻌﺐ ﺛﻬﺪﺃ ﺃﻟﻄﻔﻞ ﺃﻟﻠﺮﺉﺀ !! ﻭﻛﺜﻒ ﺑﺠﺄﻫﺒﺐ ﺩﻟﻈ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻤﺯ ﺃﻟﺆﺠﺮﻡ ؟ ﺃﻟﻴﻔﺐ ﺗﺤﻤﻩ ﻭﺷﺂﻟﻴﻪ ﻭﻗﺬ ﺃﻋﻴﺮﺑﻨﻰ ﺃﻟﺸﻔﻘﺔ ﻟﺤﺄﻟﻴﻪ : _ ﻫﻞ ﺁﺗﺐ ﺟﺄﻧﻒ ؟ ﺁﺣﺄﺙ : ﺗﻹﻢ ﻗﺒﺐ : ﻣﺄﻫﺪﺃ ﺃﻟﺸﻰﺀ ﺃﻟﺪﺉ ﺑﺼﻹﻪ ﻋﺒﻲ ﺟﻀﺮﻙ ؟ ﻭﺁﺳﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﺜﻪ ﺛﺸﻰﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺮﺋﻠﺔ ﻭﺛﺬﻭﺭﻩ ﻓﻬﻢ ﻣﺄﺁﻋﻨﺜﻪ ﻭﺁﺣﺄﺙ : ﻫﺪﺃ ؟! ﻳﻢ ﺳﺮﺫ ﺛﻴﻔﻌﺜﺮﻩ ﻟﺒﺤﻚﺄﺕ .. ﺷﺂﻟﻴﻪ: ﻟﻢَ ﻟﻢ ﺋﻔﺠﺮ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ ؟ ﺁﺣﺄﺙ : ﻓﺼﺒﺐ ﺃﻟﺪﻫﺄﺙ ﻟﺆﻌﺄﻥ ﺁﻛﺘﺮ ﺃﺯﺫﺧﺄﻣﺄً .. ﻭﻓﻌﺮﺕ ﺁﻥ ﺁﺷﻴﻘﻞ ﺧﺄﻓﺒﺔ ﻭﻣﻦ ﻳﻢ ... ﻋﺄﺫ ﻟﺒﺸﺮﻭﺫ ﺩﺃﺑﻪ .. ﻭﻗﻒ ﻛﺂﺗﻪ ﻗﺬ ﻋﺰﻡ ﻋﺒﻲ ﺳﻰﺀ ﻣﺄ .. ﺧﺄﻭﻟﺐ ﺁﻥ ﺁﺷﻴﻠﻘﺜﻪ ﺫﻭﻥ ﺣﺬﻭﻱ .. ﺭﻛﺾ ﺛﻹﺜﺬﺃً ﻋﻨﻰ .. ﻟﻢ ﺑﻌﻦ ﺧﺄﻟﻴﻰ ﺑﺴﺆﺢ ﺛﺄﻟﺒﺤﺄﻕ ﺛﻪ .. ﺃﻟﻴﻔﺐ ﺗﺤﻤ ﺃﻟﺤﺄﻓﺒﺔ ﺃﻟﺆﺤﻴﺮﻗﺔ ﺭﺁﺋﺐ ﻣﻨﺄﻇﺮ ﺳﻨﺜﻹﺔ ﻟﺠﺘﺚ ﻣﺒﻘﺄﺓ ﻫﻨﺄ ﻭﻫﻨﺄﻙ .. ﻛﺄﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺛﺜﻨﻬﺄ ﺣﺘﺔ ﺃﻟﺴﺄﻧﻖ ﻭﺭﺣﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﺮﻭﺭ .. ﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﺃﻟﺨﺮﻭﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺒﻈ ﺃﻟﺬﺃﻧﺮﺓ ﻭﻋﺬﺕ ﻟﺒﺆﻨﺰﻝ ﻛﻘﻨﺜﻨﺔ ﺟﺄﻭﺋﺔ .. ﻟﻢ ﺁﺷﻴﻄﻊ ﺃﺷﻴﺜﻹﺄﺙ ﻣﺄﺣﺮﻱ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺄ ﺁﺗﺄ ﻭﺃﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﻨﻪ ﻫﻤ ﺁﺗﻰ ﻟﻢ ﺁﻋﺬ ﺇﻻ ﻣﺘﻘﺒﺔ ﺛﺄﻟﺨﻤﻑ .. ﺃﻟﺨﻤﻑ ﻋﺒﻲ ﺃﻟﻄﻔﻤﻟﺔ.. ﻋﺒﻲ ﺃﻷﻭﻃﺄﻥ .. ﻋﺒﻲ ﺃﻐﺗﺴﺄﺗﺜﺔ .. ...... ﺃﺗﻴﻬﻲ.......

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