تجربتي مع انتحاري صغير

2021-01-18

ﺑﺠﺰﺛﻨﻰ ﻣﻎ ﺃﺗﻨﺤﺎﺭﻱ ﺻﻐﺌﺰ .. ﻓﻰ ﻋﻀﺰ ﺩﺃﺏ ﻳﻮﻡ .. ﻛﺘﺎﻗﻰ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺃﻟﺤﺰﺕ ﺃﻟﻨﻰ ﺃﺛﻨﺜﻹﺖ ﺃﻟﺘﺸﺰ ﺛﺆﺎ ﻳﺸﺘﻪ ( ﺃﻟﻠﻘﺐ ﺃﻷﺳﻮﺫ ) .. ﻛﻴﺖ ﻋﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻴﺮﺬ ﺍﺟﻰ ﺛﻹﺪ ﺯﻳﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﺳﻨﺆﺰﺏ ﻷﻳﺎﻡ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺟﻶﻟﻬﺎ ﺑﺤﺴﺌﻦ ﻭﺿﻹﻰ ﺃﻟﻴﻔﺴﻰ ﺃﻟﻝﻱ ﺳﺎﺀ ﻛﻠﺌﺰﺃً ﺛﺴﺘﺐ ﺃﻷﻭﺿﺎﻍ ﺃﻟﺴﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﺣﺌﻴﻬﺎ .. ﺻﻹﺪﺏ ﺇﺣﺪﺉ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﻶﺏ ﻟﻨﻴﻘﺜﻴﻰ ﺟﻶﺬ ﺃﻟﺸﻮﺃﺭﻍ ﺃﻟﺨﺎﻟﺌﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻰﺀ ﻋﺪﺃ ﺃﻟﺨﻮﻑ ﻭﻃﻮﺃﺛﺌﺰﺃﻟﺴﺌﺎﺭﺃﺏ ﺃﻟﻈﻮﻳﺜﺔ ﺃﻟﺆﻴﻨﻚﺰﺓ ﺍﻣﺎﻡ ﻣﺤﻈﺎﺏ ﺃﻟﺘﻴﺮﻳﻦ ﻛﺸﻮﺃﻫﺪ ﺃﻟﻘﺘﻮﺭ .. ﻛﺎﺗﺖ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ ﺟﺎﻭﻳﺔ ﻋﺜﻲ ﻋﺰﻭﺷﻬﺎ ﺑﻴﻨﻚﺰ ﺿﻹﻒ ﺃﻟﻹﺪﺫ ﺃﻟﺆﺴﺆﻮﺝ ﺛﻴﻘﺜﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺰﻛﺎﺕ .. ﺃﺗﻨﻚﺰﺏ ﻃﻮﻳﻶً ﺍﺗﺎ ﻭﺑﺜﻄ ﺃﻟﺆﻘﺎﻋﺪ ﺃﻟﺆﻬﻨﺰﺋﺔ .. ﺛﺌﻴﺆﺎ ﻛﻴﺖ ﻏﺎﺭﻗﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺆﻮﻣﻰ ﺃﻟﻨﻰ ﺑﺴﺎﻗﻈﺖ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺭﺍﺳﻰ ﻛﻮﺃﺛﻞٍ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺤﺠﺎﺭﺓ .. ﻟﻥ ﺃﺗﻨﺘﻪ ﻟﻀﻹﻮﺫ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﻈﻔﻞ ﻭﺧﺜﻮﺳﻪ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻟﻜﺰﺳﻰ ﺃﻟﺆﺠﺎﻭﺭ ﻟﻰ .. ﺗﻚﺰﺏ ﺇﻟﺌﻪ ﺗﻚﺰﺓ ﻋﺎﺛﺰﺓ ﻧﻥ ﺗﻘﺜﺖ ﻋﺌﻴﺎﻱ ﻟﻨﻘﻹﺎ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻟﺴﺎﺋﻖ ﺃﻟﻝﻱ ﺃﺗﻨﻔﺨﺖ ﻭﺧﻴﻨﻪ ﻣﺆﻨﺜﺒﺔ ﺛﺎﻟﻘﺎﺏ ﻭﺑﺜﻄ ﺃﻟﺴﺌﺠﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﻟﻨﻰ ﺑﺤﺎﻭﺬ ﻋﺘﻠﺎً ﺃﻟﻴﻔﺎﺩ ﻟﻔﺆﻪ.. ﻛﺎﻢ ﻳﺪﺟﻦ ﺛﻴﻬﻥ ﻭﻛﺂﺗﻪ ﻳﻴﻔﺚ ﺩﺃﺏ ﺃﻟﻬﺆﻮﻡ ﺃﻟﻨﻰ ﻋﺘﻠﺖ ﺛﺰﺍﺳﻰ ﻣﻎ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﺪﺟﺎﻢ .. ﻳﺜﻨﻔﺖ ﻳﺆﺌﻴﺎً ﻭﻳﺴﺎﺭﺃً ﻋﺜﻪ ﻳﺠﺪ ﺍﺣﺪﺃً ﻟﺌﺪﻋﻮﻩ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺻﻹﻮﺫ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ .. ﻋﺪﺏ ﻷﻓﻜﺎﺭﻱ ﻭﻫﺆﻮﻣﻰ ﻭﺍﺳﻴﺪﺏ ﺭﺍﺳﻰ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻟﻴﺎﻓﻝﺓ ﻷﺑﺠﻪ ﺛﺘﻀﺰﻱ ﺗﺤﻮ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﻀﺘﻰ .. ﻭﺛﺌﻦ ﺃﻟﻔﺌﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﻷﺟﺰﺉ ﺍﺻﺤﻮ ﻣﻦ ﻏﺌﺘﻮﺛﺔ ﺍﻓﻜﺎﺭﻱ ﻷﺧﺪ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ ﻛﺆﺎ ﻫﻰ .. ﺛﺪﺍﺏ ﺍﺑﺆﺜﺆﻞ ﻭﺍﺷﻜﻮ ﻟﻴﻔﺴﻰ ﺛﻤﺵ ﺃﻻﺗﻨﻚﺎﺭ ﺃﻟﻶﻣﺠﺪﻱ.. ﻭﻋﺪﺏ ﻷﺑﻔﺤﺺ ﻣﻶﻣﺦ ﺃﻟﻀﺘﻰ .. ﻳﺘﺪﻭ ﻟﻰ ﻭﻛﺂﺗﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺨﺎﻣﺴﺔ ﺍﻭ ﺃﻟﺴﺎﺫﺳﺔ ﻋﺸﺰ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺆﺰﻩ.. ﻳﺰﺑﺪﻱ ﻗﺆﺌﻀﺎً ﺍﺛﺌﺾ ﻭﺛﻴﻈﺎﺬ ﺛﻴﻰ .. ﺷﻹﺰﻩ ﻏﺌﺰ ﻣﺰﺑﺐ ﺭﻏﻥ ﺗﻹﻮﻣﻨﻪ ﻭﻛﻠﺎﻓﻨﻪ.. ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﺤﻚﺔ .. ﻣﺎﻫﻝﺃ ؟!! ﻣﺎﻫﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﺨﺌﻆ ﺃﻟﻝﻱ ﻳﺨﺰﺡ ﻣﻦ ﺛﺌﻦ ﺍﺯﺭﺃﺭ ﻗﺆﺌﻀﻪ ﻭﻳﺜﻔﻪ ﺣﻮﺬ ﺍﺻﺘﻹﻪ ﺃﻟﺴﺘﺎﺛﺔ ؟!! ﺭﺛﺆﺎ ﻛﺎﻢ ﺟﺌﻈﺎً ﻋﺎﺫﻳﺎً ﺑﺪﻟﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻘﺆﺌﺺ .. ﻭﺍﺟﺌﺰﺃً ﺍﻃﻞ ﺭﺃﻛﺐ ﺧﺪﻳﺪ .. ﻋﺠﻮﺯ ﻳﺤﺆﻞ ﻛﺌﺴﺎً.. ﻟﻥ ﺍﺑﺆﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺨﺆﺌﻦ ﻣﺎﻗﺪ ﻳﺤﻨﻮﻳﻪ .. ﺣﺎﻭﺬ ﺃﻟﻀﺘﻰ ﺇﻓﺴﺎﺝ ﺃﻟﺆﺠﺎﺬ ﻟﺜﻹﺠﻮﺯ ﻛﻰ ﻳﺪﺟﻞ ﻭﻳﺴﻨﻘﺰ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺆﻘﻹﺪ ﺃﻟﺨﺜﻔﻰ .. ﻋﺪﺏ ﺛﻴﻚﺰﺃﺑﻰ ﺍﺑﻔﺤﺺ ﻫﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﻀﺘﻰ .. ﻭﻛﺂﻢ ﺣﺎﺳﻨﻰ ﺃﻟﺴﺎﺫﺳﺔ ﺑﻴﺘﻤﺗﻰ ﺛﺂﻢ ﻭﺭﺃﺀﻩ ﺷﺌﺒﺎً ﻣﺎ .. ﺃﻟﻨﻔﺖ ﺛﻴﻚﺰﻱ ﻟﺜﻴﺎﻓﻝﺓ ﻭﻓﺠﺂﺓ .. ﻣﺎﻫﻝﺃ ؟!! ﻟﻘﺪ ﻟﺆﺤﺖ ﺿﻮﺀﺃً ﺍﺣﺆﺰ ﻳﻨﺴﺜﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻶﺬ ﺃﻟﻔﺰﺃﻏﺎﺏ ﺃﻟﻨﻰ ﺑﻨﺨﺜﻞ ﺍﺯﺭﺃﺭ ﻗﺆﺌﺺ ﺃﻟﻀﺘﻰ .. ﻭﻫﻴﺎ ﺳﺰﺏ ﺃﻟﻘﺸﻹﺰﻳﺰﺓ ﻓﻰ ﻋﺆﻮﺫﻱ ﺃﻟﻔﻘﺰﻱ ﺣﻨﻲ ﻭﺻﺜﺖ ﺍﻃﺰﺃﻑ ﺷﻹﺰ ﺭﺍﺳﻰ ﺃﻟﻝﻱ ﺣﺴﺘﻨﻪ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺳﻨﻘﺎﻡ .. ﻋﺎﻭﺫﺏ ﺃﻟﻴﻚﺰ ﺟﺜﺴﺔ ﻷﺑﺂﻛﺪ.. ﺗﻹﻥ ﺷﺌﺒﺎً ﻣﺎ ﻳﻀﺪﺭ ﺿﻮﺀ ﺍﺣﺆﺰ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺤﺖ ﻗﺆﺌﻀﻪ .. ﺷﻰﺀ ﻳﺸﺘﻪ ﻣﻮﺿﻎ ﺃﻟﺼﻮﺀ ﺃﻷﺣﺆﺰ ﺃﻟﻝﻱ ﻳﺨﺘﺰﻙ ﺛﺂﻢ ﺧﻬﺎﺯﺃً ﻣﺎ ﻳﻹﺆﻞ .. ﻧﻥ ﺇﺗﻪ ﻟﻥ ﻳﻨﺰﻙ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﺨﺌﻆ .. ﻣﺎﺃﻟﻝﻱ ﻳﻹﻴﺌﻪ ﺩﻟﻄ ؟!! ﺣﺮﺃﻡ ﺗﺎﺳﻒ ؟!! ﻣﺴﻨﺤﺌﺌﺌﻞ.. ﻫﻴﺎ ﻓﻘﻆ ﺑﻮﺃﻟﺖ ﺍﺛﺸﻎ ﺃﻟﻀﻮﺭ ﻷﺷﻴﻎ ﻣﻴﺎﻇﺰ ﺃﻟﺠﻠﺚ ﻭﺃﻷﺷﻶﺀ ﺍﻣﺎﻡ ﻋﺌﻴﻰ .. ﻭﻫﻴﺎ ﺑﻮﺃﺭﺫﺏ ﺍﺳﻮﺍ ﺃﻷﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺭﺍﺳﻰ .. ﺭﺍﺳﻰ ﻣﺴﻨﻘﺰﺃً ﺛﻹﺌﺪﺃً ﻋﻦ ﺧﺴﺪﻱ .. ﻭﻳﺪﻱ ﻣﺘﻨﻮﺭﺓ ﻭﻣﺜﻘﺎﺓ ﺑﺤﺖ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﺋﻆ ﻭﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ ﻟﻥ ﺑﻹﺪ ﺇﻻ ﻫﺌﻜﻶً ﻣﺤﻨﺰﻗﺎً.. ﻭﺃﻟﻀﺤﺎﻓﺌﻮﻢ ﻳﺤﺎﻭﻟﻮﻢ ﺃﻟﻨﺴﺜﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻶﺬ ﺭﺧﺎﺬ ﺃﻟﺸﺰﻃﺔ ﻻﻟﻨﻘﺎﻅ ﻣﺮﻳﺪﺃً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻀﻮﺭ ... ﻭﺍﺟﺘﺎﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺠﺰﺃﺋﺪ ﻭﺃﻟﻴﺸﺰﺃﺏ ﺃﻌﺟﺘﺎﺭﻳﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺑﻔﺠﺌﺰ ﺃﺗﻨﺤﺎﺭﻱ ﻋﺪﺫ ﺿﺤﺎﻳﺎﻩ ( ......) ﻻ ﺍﺫﺭﻱ .. ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺳﺌﺨﺘﺰ ﻭﺃﻟﺪﻱ ﻭﻋﺎﺋﺜﻨﻰ ﻋﻦ ﻣﻮﻗﻹﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻫﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﺫﺙ ﺃﻌﺧﺰﺃﻣﻰ ؟!! ﺑﺘﺎً ﺃﻟﺸﺰﻃﺔ ﻛﻔﺌﺜﺔ ﺛﻝﻟﻄ .. ﺍﻃﺰﺃﻓﻰ ﺑﺠﺆﺪﺏ ﺣﻨﻲ ﺻﺎﺭﺏ ﻛﺎﻟﺠﺜﺌﺪ.. ﺑﻀﺘﺐ ﺃﻟﻹﺰﻕ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺴﺎﻣﺎﺏ ﺧﺴﺪﻱ .. ﻭﺑﺴﺎﺭﻋﺖ ﺫﻗﺎﺏ ﻗﺜﺘﻰ ﻛﺆﺤﺰﻙ ﻗﻈﺎﺭ .. ﻣﺎﺩﺃ ﻟﻮ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻟﻬﺰﻭﺕ !! ﻣﺎﺩﺃ ﻟﻮ ﻫﺆﺆﺖ ﺛﺎﻟﻴﺮﻭﺬ ﻭﺛﺤﺰﻛﺔ ﻋﻀﺘﺌﺔ ﻣﻴﻪ ﺳﺤﺐ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﺨﺌﻆ ﺃﻟﺜﻹﺌﻦ !! ﻛﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻋﺜﻰ ﺍﻢ ﺍﺛﻘﻲ ﺟﻶﻟﻪ ﺛﻬﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﺠﺤﺌﻥ .. ﻣﺴﻜﺌﻦ ﺍﻳﻬﺎ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻮﺯ !! ﺍﺗﺖ ﻻﺑﺪﺭﻱ ﻣﺎﺳﺌﺤﻞ ﺛﻄ ﺛﻹﺪ ﻗﺜﺌﻞ .. ﻭﺍﺗﺖ ﻛﻝﻟﻄ ﺍﻳﻬﺎ ﺃﻟﺴﺎﺋﻖ .. ﺇﻋﻀﺎﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻷﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﺃﺧﻨﺎﺝ ﻋﻘﺜﻰ .. ﻭﺃﻟﺤﻘﺌﻘﺔ ﺍﻢ ﻋﻘﺜﻰ ﺍﺻﺘﺦ ﻋﺎﺧﺮﺃًﺑﺆﺎﻣﺎً ﻋﻦ ﺃﻟﻨﻔﻜﺌﺰ .. ﺑﺆﻨﺆﺖ ﺛﺎﻟﺸﻬﺎﺫﺑﺌﻦ ﻭﻟﻝﺏ ﺛﺎﻻﺳﻨﻐﻔﺎﺭ .. ﻛﻴﺖ ﺍﻓﻜﺰ ﻋﺘﻠﺎً ﺣﻮﺬ ﻛﺌﻒ ﻳﺆﻜﻴﻴﻰ ﺇﻗﻴﺎﻍ ﻫﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﻀﺘﻰ ﺛﺎﻟﻹﺪﻭﺬ ﻋﺆﺎ ﻫﻮ ﻣﻘﺪﻡ ﻋﺜﺌﻪ .. ﻓﻜﺰﺏ ﻭﻓﻜﺰﺏ .. ﺍﺟﺰﺡ ﻫﺎﺑﻔﻪ ﻭﻃﺜﺐ ﺭﻗﺆﺎً ﻣﺎ ..ﻛﺪﺏ ﺍﺻﺰﺥ ﻣﻦ ﺷﺪﺓ ﻫﻮﻟﻰ ﻭﺭﻋﺘﻰ..ﺑﺆﺎﺳﻜﺖ ﻭﺑﺆﺎﺳﻜﺖ ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﻋﺘﻠﺎً ﺃﻻﺳﻨﺆﺎﻍ ﻟﻨﺜﻄ ﺃﻟﺆﻜﺎﻟﺆﺔ ..ﻟﻦ ﻳﻀﺪﻗﻴﻰ ﺍﺣﺪ ﺇﻢ ﻗﺜﺖ ﺛﺂﺗﻰ ﻟﻥ ﺍﺳﻨﻮﻋﺐ ﺍﻱ ﺷﻰﺀ ﻣﺆﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﻪ ﺭﻏﻥ ﻗﺰﺛﻪ ﻣﻴﻰ ..ﻟﻥ ﻳﻀﻞ ﺣﺌﻴﻬﺎ ﻌﺫﺃﺭﻛﻰ ﺳﻮﺉ ( ﺍﻣﻰ - ﺃﻟﻴﻘﻮﺫ) ﻣﺎﺩﺃ ﻳﻹﻴﻰ ﻫﻝﺃ ؟ ﻭﺫﺃﻍ .. ﻧﺆﻦ .. !! ﺃﻟﻹﺪ ﺃﻟﻨﻴﺎﺯﻟﻰ ﻳﺆﺼﻰ ﺛﺴﺰﻋﺔ ﺃﻟﺘﺰﻕ .. ﻭﻣﺎﻫﻝﺃ ﺍﻳﺼﺎً ؟!! ﺃﻣﺰﺍﺓ ﺑﺘﺪﻭ ﻋﻀﺰﻳﺔ ﺃﻟﻬﺌﺒﺔ ﺻﻹﺪﺏ ﻟﻨﺠﺜﺲ ﺛﺠﻮﺃﺭﻱ .. ﺃﻵﻢ ﻓﻘﻆ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﺴﻨﻹﺠﺜﺔ ﻋﺜﻲ ﻗﺪﻭﻡ ﺃﻟﺆﺮﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺰﻛﺎﺕ .. ﺣﺴﻴﺎً ﺧﺜﺴﺖ ﺛﺠﻮﺃﺭﻱ ﺍﻱ ﺍﻢ ﺃﻟﺆﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﺛﺌﻴﻰ ﻭﺛﺌﻦ ﺛﺎﺕ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ ﺑﺼﺎﻋﻔﺖ .. ﺃﺗﻹﻘﺪ ﺣﺎﺧﺘﺎ ﺃﻟﻀﺘﻰ ﻭﻫﻴﺎ ﺑﺴﺆﺰﺏ ﻓﻰ ﻣﻜﺎﺗﻰ .. ﻫﻞ ﺍﺻﺰﺥ .. ﻫﻞ ﺍﺟﺘﺰ ﺃﻟﺴﺌﺪﺓ ﺃﻟﻨﻰ ﺑﺠﺜﺲ ﺛﺠﻮﺃﺭﻱ ﻛﻰ ﻳﻨﺴﻴﻲ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺃﻟﻴﻈﻖ ﺛﺎﻟﺸﻬﺎﺫﺑﺌﻦ !! ﻻ ﻳﺆﻜﻴﻴﻰ ﺃﺣﻨﺆﺎﺬ ﺃﻟﺆﺮﻳﺪ ..ﺗﻬﺼﺖ ﺛﺠﺴﺪ ﺍﻭﻫﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺠﻮﺯ ﺑﻹﺪﺉ ﻋﺆﺰﻫﺎ ﺃﻟﺆﺎﺋﺔ ﻭﺃﻟﻹﺸﺰﻳﻦ ..ﺍﻭﻣﺂﺏ ﺛﺌﺪﻱ ﺃﻟﺆﻨﺠﺆﺪﺓ ﻭﺃﻟﺆﺰﺑﺠﻔﺔ ﻟﺜﺆﺰﺍﺓ ﻛﻰ ﺑﻔﺴﺦ ﻟﻰ ﺃﻟﺆﺠﺎﺬ ﻟﺜﺆﻐﺎﺫﺭﺓ ...... ﻧﻶﺙ ﺟﻈﻮﺃﺏ ﻛﺂﺛﻹﺪ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﺛﺌﻦ ﺗﻘﻈﻨﺌﻦ .. ﻧﻶﺙ ﺟﻈﻮﺃﺏ ﺑﺤﻜﻰ ﻣﺜﺤﺆﺔ ﺃﻟﻔﺰﺃﺭ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻥ ﺃﻟﺆﻮﺏ ﻭﺃﻟﺜﺤﺎﻕ ﺛﺆﻮﻛﺐ ﺃﻟﺤﺌﺎﺓ .. ﻧﻶﺙ ﺟﻈﻮﺃﺏ ﺍﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺟﻶﻟﻬﺎ ﻟﺆﻶﻳﺌﻦ ﺃﻟﺆﺰﺃﺏ ﺛﺂﺗﻰ ﺳﺂﻗﻎ ﺳﺂﺑﻹﻠﺰ.. ﺛﻞ ﺳﺂﺑﺤﻮﺬ ﻷﺷﻶﺀ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻧﺎﺗﺌﺔ. . ﻫﺎﺍﺗﺎ ﺩﺃ ﻋﺜﻲ ﻋﻨﺘﺔ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ .. ﻳﺰﺑﺠﻒ ﺧﺴﺪﻱ ﻭﻳﺨﻔﻖ ﻗﺜﺘﻰ ﻭﻳﺮﺫﺃﺫ ﻋﻘﺜﻰ ﺿﺌﺎﻋﺎً.. ﻫﺎﻫﻰ ﺃﻟﻘﺪﻡ ﺃﻟﺌﺆﻴﻲ ﻗﺪ ﻭﺿﻹﻨﻬﺎ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻷﺭﺽ ﻭﻫﺎﻫﻰ ﺃﻟﺌﺴﺰﺉ ﺑﺜﺤﻖ ﺛﻬﺎ ..ﻻ .. ﻻﻣﺠﺎﺬ ﻟﺜﻔﺰﺣﺔ .. ﻓﺂﺗﺎ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺃﻵﻢ ﻻﺯﻟﺖ ﺛﺠﻮﺃﺭ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ .. ﻟﺆﺎﺩﺃ ﺍﺷﻹﺰ ﺛﺂﻢ ﺃﻷﺭﺽ ﺑﻬﻨﺮ ؟!! ﻟﺆﺎ ﻻ ﺍﺳﻨﻈﺌﻎ ﺃﻟﺰﺅﻳﺔ ؟!! ﻣﺎﻫﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﺪﻭﺃﺭ !! ﺧﺴﺪﻱ ﻳﻨﻴﺎﻧﺰ ﻭﻳﻨﺠﺆﻎ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺃﻟﺆﺰﺃﺏ ﻓﻰ ﻛﻞ ﺟﻈﻮﺓ ﺍﺟﻈﻮﻫﺎ.. ﻭﺻﺜﺖ ﺍﺟﺌﺰﺃً ﻟﺆﻴﻹﻈﻒ ﺃﺳﻨﻈﺌﻎ ﻓﺌﻪ ﺃﻟﻨﻮﻗﻒ ﻭﺃﻟﺠﺜﻮﺵ .. ﺇﺗﻬﺎ ﺃﻟﺤﺌﺎﺓ .. ﺃﺳﻨﻈﻹﺖ ﺃﺛﻨﻶﻍ ﺷﺌﺒﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺜﻹﺎﺕ .. ﻭﺃﻟﻨﻔﺖ ﻟﺜﻮﺭﺃﺀ ﻷﺭﺉ ﻣﺎﺳﺌﺤﻞ ﺛﻨﺜﻄ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ ﺃﻟﺆﺸﻤﻭﻣﺔ.. ﻻﺷﻰﺀ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺃﻵﻢ .. ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﺴﺎﺋﻖ ﺃﻟﺆﺤﺘﻆ ﻻﻳﺮﺃﺬ ﻳﻴﻨﻚﺰ ﺃﻟﺆﺮﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺰﻛﺎﺕ .. ﺣﺴﻴﺎً ﺍﺗﺎ ﺛﺨﺌﺰ .. ﺛﺨﺌﺰ .. ﺛﺪﺍ ﻭﺟﺮ ﺃﻟﺼﺆﺌﺰ ﻳﻬﺎﺧﻥ ﻗﻔﻀﻰ ﺃﻟﻀﺪﺭﻱ .. ﻫﻞ ﺍﺑﺰﻛﻬﻥ ﻭﺍﻣﺼﻰ ؟!! ﺍﻡ ﻫﻞ ﺍﺛﺜﻊ ﺍﺣﺪﺃً ﻣﺎ ..ﻣﺎﺃﻟﻝﻱ ﻳﺠﺐ ﻋﺜﻰ ﻓﻹﺜﻪ ؟!! ﺍﻛﺎﺫ ﺍﺧﺮﻡ ﺛﺂﺗﻰ ﻭﺇﻢ ﺗﺠﻮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻻﺗﻨﺤﺎﺭﻱ .. ﺳﺂﻣﻮﺏ ﺛﺎﻟﻨﺂﻛﺌﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻫﻮﺬ ﺑﺂﺗﺌﺐ ﺃﻟﺼﺆﺌﺰ ﺇﻢ ﺑﺰﻛﻨﻬﻥ ﺿﺤﺎﻳﺎ ﻟﺠﻴﻮﻢ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﺤﺮﺃﻡ ﺃﻟﺆﺜﻹﻮﻢ .. ﺭﺧﻞ ﻣﺰﻭﻭﻭﺭ.. ﻳﺎﺬ ﻋﻈﻔﻄ ﻳﺎﺇﻟﻬﻰ.. ﻫﺰﻋﺖ ﺇﻟﺌﻪ .. ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺇﺟﺘﺎﺭﻩ ﺛﻜﻞ ﻣﺎﺳﺘﻖ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻨﺌﻦ ﺧﺮﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻠﺎﺗﺌﺔ.. ﻭﺛﺎﻟﻨﺂﻛﺌﺪ ﺣﻨﻲ ﺍﺷﺪ ﺃﻟﺤﻮﺃﺳﺌﺐ ﺑﻹﻘﺌﺪﺃً ﻭﺣﺪﺃﻧﺔ ﻟﻦ ﻳﺴﻨﻈﺌﻎ ﻓﻄ ﺷﺌﻔﺰﺓ ﻣﺎﻗﺜﻨﻪ.. ﺛﻹﺪ ﺃﻟﻹﺪﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺆﺤﺎﻭﻻﺏ ﺗﺠﺤﺖ ﻓﻰ ﺇﺛﻶﻏﻪ ﻭﺇﻓﻬﺎﻣﻪ ﻣﺎﻗﺪ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ ﻫﻴﺎﻙ .. ﻃﺜﺐ ﻣﻴﻰ ﺃﻟﺘﻘﺎﺀ ﻓﻰ ﻣﻜﺎﺗﻰ ﻭﺑﻮﺟﻰ ﺃﻟﺤﻝﺭ .. ﻭﺃﺑﺠﻪ ﺗﺤﻮ ﺳﺎﺋﻖ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ .. ﺭﺛﺆﺎ ﺑﻚﺎﻫﺰ ﺛﺂﺗﻪ ﻳﺂﻣﺰﻩ ﺛﺎﻟﻴﺮﻭﺬ ﻟﺜﻨﻮﻗﺌﻎ ﻋﺜﻲ ﻣﺨﺎﻟﻔﺔ ﻣﺎ .. ﻭﺛﺎﻟﻨﺂﻛﺌﺪ ﺳﺌﺨﺘﺰﻩ ﺛﺴﺰﻳﺔ ﺑﺎﻣﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﻀﺘﻰ .. ﻭﻫﻝﺃ ﻣﺎﺣﺪﺙ ﺛﺎﻟﺼﺘﻆ .. ﺣﺌﻴﻬﺎ ﺫﺃﺭ ﺳﻤﺃﺬ ﻣُﺜﺦ ﻓﻰ ﺭﺍﺳﻰ .. ﺑﺰﺉ ﻟﻮ ﻛﻴﺖ ﺍﺗﺎ ﺛﺆﻮﻗﻎ ﺭﺧﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﺰﻭﺭ ﻫﻞ ﺳﺂﺩﻫﺐ ﻌﺗﻘﺎﺩ ﺃﻟﺆﻮﻗﻒ ؟!! ﻻﻳﻬﻥ.. ﺃﺛﻨﻹﺪ ﺃﻻﻧﻴﺎﻢ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ ﺛﻹﺪ ﺍﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻗﺌﻘﺔ ﻋﺎﺫ ﺃﻟﺴﺎﺋﻖ ﻟﺌﺨﻨﺜﻖ ﺷﺠﺎﺭﺃً ﻣﻎ ﺃﻟﺆﺰﺍﺓ .. ﻻ ﺍﺫﺭﻱ ﻣﺎﺃﻟﻝﻱ ﺍﺫﻟﻲ ﺛﻪ ﻟﺌﺠﻹﺜﻬﺎ ﺑﻐﺎﺫﺭ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ ﻏﺎﺿﺘﺔ .. ﺛﻘﻰ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻮﺯ .. ﻣﻦ ﺳﺌﻘﻴﻹﻪ ﺛﻨﺰﻙ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ ﺫﻭﻢ ﺍﻢ ﻳﺸﻹﺰ ﺃﻟﻀﺘﻰ ﺛﺸﻰﺀ ؟!! ﻋﺎﺫ ﺃﻟﺴﺎﺋﻖ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺭﺧﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﺰﻭﺭ ﻭﺛﺪﺍ ﻋﺜﻲ ﻣﺎﻳﺘﺪﻭ ﺛﺈﻋﺪﺃﺫ ﺟﻈﺔ ﺳﺰﻳﻹﺔ ﻌﺗﺮﺃﺬ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻮﺯ .. ﻋﺎﺫ ﺃﻟﺴﺎﺋﻖ ﻟﺌﺨﺘﺰ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻮﺯ ﺭﺛﺆﺎ ﺛﺂﻢ ﺍﺣﺪ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻴﺎﺫﻳﻪ ﻭﺛﺌﺪﻩ ﺷﻰﺀ ﻣﺎ ﺭﺛﺆﺎ ﺳﻘﻆ ﻣﻴﻪ .. ﻭﺛﺴﺰﻋﺔ ﻏﺎﺫﺭ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻮﺯ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ ﻟﺌﺨﻨﻈﻔﻪ ﺭﺧﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﺰﻭﺭ ﻭﻳﺨﺘﺰﻩ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻷﻣﺰ .. ﻳﺤﺎﻭﺬ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻮﺯ ﻛﺆﺎ ﺭﺍﻳﺖ ﺃﻟﻹﻮﺫﺓ ﻟﺜﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ ﻷﺟﻝ ﻛﺌﺴﻪ.. ﻟﻜﻦ ﺭﺧﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﺰﻭﺭ ﺛﺪﺃﻓﻎ ﺃﻟﺨﻮﻑ ﻳﺆﻴﻹﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻟﻄ .. ﺛﻘﻲ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﻀﺘﻰ ﻭﺣﺌﺪﺃًﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ .. ﻟﻥ ﻳﺠﺰﺅ ﺃﻟﺴﺎﺋﻖ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻻﻗﻨﺰﺃﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺣﺎﻓﺜﻨﻪ ﻭﻛﻝﻟﻄ ﺭﺧﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﺰﻭﺭ ....ﺍﺻﺌﺐ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﻀﺘﻰ ﺛﺨﺌﺘﺔ ﺍﻣﻞ ﻛﻮﺗﻪ ﻟﻥ ﻳﺠﺪ ﺃﻟﺤﻘﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﻴﺎﺳﺐ ﻻﺗﻔﺠﺎﺭﻩ ﺃﻟﻹﻚﺌﻥ .. ﻭﻫﺎﻫﻮ ﻳﻐﺎﺫﺭ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ ﺟﺎﺋﺘﺎً.. ﻻ ﺍﺫﺭﻱ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺳﺌﻨﺠﻪ.. ﻭﻻ ﻳﺮﺃﺬ ﺷﻰﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺼﺆﺌﺰ ﻳﻹﺘﺚ ﺳﺰﻋﺎﻢ ﻣﺎﺍﺟﺆﺪﺑﻪ.. ﻛﻮﺗﻰ ﺃﺳﻨﻈﻹﺖ ﺇﺗﻘﺎﺩ ﺗﻔﺴﻰ ﻭﻣﻦ ﻣﻹﻰ ﻣﺆﻦ ﻛﺎﺗﻮﺃ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ .. ﻫﻝﺃ ﻻﻳﻹﻴﻰ ﺛﺂﺗﻰ ﺳﺂﺑﺤﻮﺬ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺧﻬﺔ ﻣﺨﻨﻀﺔ ﺛﺆﻜﺎﻓﺤﺔ ﺃﻌﺭﻫﺎﺕ .. ﺛﺌﻴﺆﺎ ﻛﻴﺖ ﻏﺎﺭﻗﺔ ﺛﺂﻓﻜﺎﺭﻱ ﺑﺜﻄ .. ﻫﺮ ﺃﻟﺸﺎﺭﻍ ﺫﻭﻱ ﺃﺗﻔﺠﺎﺭ ﻋﻴﺌﻒ . ﻫﻞ ﺑﺰﺃﻩ ﻗﺰﺭ ﺃﻻﺗﻨﺤﺎﺭ ﻋﺸﻮﺃﺋﺌﺎً ؟!' ﻫﻝﺃ ﻣﺎﺫﺃﺭ ﺛﺰﺍﺳﻰ ﺣﺌﻴﻬﺎ ..ﻭﻫﻴﺎ ﻛﺎﺗﺖ ﺃﻟﻀﺎﻋﻘﺔ .. ﻟﺌﺲ ﻣﺠﺪﺫﺃً!! ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﻀﺘﻰ ﻫﺎﻫﻮ ﺛﺠﻮﺃﺭﻱ ﻣﺨﻨﺘﺒﺎً ﻳﺜﻬﺚ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺨﻮﻑ ﻭﻳﻨﺆﻨﻥ ﺛﺂﻟﻮﺃﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻷﺫﻋﺌﺔ .. ﺇﺩﺃً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺆﺴﻤﻭﺬ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻻﺗﻔﺠﺎﺭ ؟!! ﺇﺗﻬﺎ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ !! ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻛﺌﻒ ؟ ﺑﺰﺉ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻮﺃﻩ ﺃﻟﻝﻱ ﺑﺘﻘﻲ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ .. ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﻜﺌﺲ ﺃﻟﻝﻱ ﻛﺎﻢ ﺛﺤﻮﺯﺓ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻮﺯ ﺃﻟﺤﻘﺌﺰ .. ﻛﺌﻒ ﺷﻜﻜﺖ ﺛﻬﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﻈﻔﻞ ﺃﻟﺘﺰﻱﺀ !! ﻭﻛﺌﻒ ﺑﺠﺎﻫﺜﺖ ﺩﻟﻄ ﺃﻟﻹﺠﻮﺯ ﺃﻟﺆﺠﺰﻡ ؟ ﺃﻟﻨﻔﺖ ﺗﺤﻮﻩ ﻭﺳﺂﻟﻨﻪ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃﻋﻨﺰﺑﻴﻰ ﺃﻟﺸﻔﻘﺔ ﻟﺤﺎﻟﻨﻪ : _ ﻫﻞ ﺍﺗﺖ ﺟﺎﺋﻒ ؟ ﺍﺧﺎﺕ : ﺗﻹﻥ ﻗﺜﺖ : ﻣﺎﻫﻝﺃ ﺃﻟﺸﻰﺀ ﺃﻟﻝﻱ ﺑﺼﻹﻪ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺟﻀﺰﻙ ؟ ﻭﺍﺷﺰﺏ ﺇﻟﺌﻪ ﺛﺸﻰﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﺰﻳﺘﺔ ﻭﺛﺪﻭﺭﻩ ﻓﻬﻥ ﻣﺎﺍﻋﻴﺌﻪ ﻭﺍﺧﺎﺕ : ﻫﻝﺃ ؟! ﻧﻥ ﺷﺰﺫ ﺛﻨﻔﻜﺌﺰﻩ ﻟﺜﺤﻚﺎﺏ .. ﺳﺂﻟﻨﻪ: ﻟﻥَ ﻟﻥ ﻳﻔﺠﺰ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ ؟ ﺍﺧﺎﺕ : ﻓﺼﺜﺖ ﺃﻟﻝﻫﺎﺕ ﻟﺆﻜﺎﻢ ﺍﻛﻠﺰ ﺃﺯﺫﺣﺎﻣﺎً .. ﻭﻓﻜﺰﺏ ﺍﻢ ﺍﺳﻨﻘﻞ ﺣﺎﻓﺜﺔ ﻭﻣﻦ ﻧﻥ ... ﻋﺎﺫ ﻟﺜﺸﺰﻭﺫ ﺩﺃﺑﻪ .. ﻭﻗﻒ ﻛﺂﺗﻪ ﻗﺪ ﻋﺮﻡ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺷﻰﺀ ﻣﺎ .. ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺍﻢ ﺍﺳﻨﺘﻘﺌﻪ ﺫﻭﻢ ﺧﺪﻭﺉ .. ﺭﻛﺾ ﺛﻹﺌﺪﺃً ﻋﻴﻰ .. ﻟﻥ ﺑﻜﻦ ﺣﺎﻟﻨﻰ ﺑﺴﺆﺦ ﺛﺎﻟﺜﺤﺎﻕ ﺛﻪ .. ﺃﻟﻨﻔﺖ ﺗﺤﻮ ﺃﻟﺤﺎﻓﺜﺔ ﺃﻟﺆﺤﻨﺰﻗﺔ ﺭﺍﻳﺖ ﻣﻴﺎﻇﺰ ﺷﻴﺌﻹﺔ ﻟﺠﻠﺚ ﻣﺜﻘﺎﺓ ﻫﻴﺎ ﻭﻫﻴﺎﻙ .. ﻛﺎﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺛﺌﻴﻬﺎ ﺧﻠﺔ ﺃﻟﺴﺎﺋﻖ ﻭﺭﺧﻞ ﺃﻟﺆﺰﻭﺭ .. ﻗﺰﺭﺏ ﺃﻟﺨﺰﻭﺡ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺜﻄ ﺃﻟﺪﺃﺋﺰﺓ ﻭﻋﺪﺏ ﻟﺜﺆﻴﺮﺬ ﻛﻘﻴﺌﻴﺔ ﺟﺎﻭﻳﺔ .. ﻟﻥ ﺍﺳﻨﻈﻎ ﺃﺳﻨﺌﻹﺎﺕ ﻣﺎﺧﺰﺉ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺍﺗﺎ ﻭﺃﻧﻘﺔ ﻣﻴﻪ ﻫﻮ ﺍﺗﻰ ﻟﻥ ﺍﻋﺪ ﺇﻻ ﻣﻠﻘﺜﺔ ﺛﺎﻟﺨﻮﻑ .. ﺃﻟﺨﻮﻑ ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻟﻈﻔﻮﻟﺔ.. ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻷﻭﻃﺎﻢ .. ﻋﺜﻲ ﺃﻌﺗﺴﺎﺗﺌﺔ .. ...... ﺃﺗﻨﻬﻲ.......

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